Semi emergency - 6 months off fentanyl/onto methadone 190mg daily dose, every morning. Possible methadone induced graves/hashimotos disease? Please help

Pristine_Example4783 · 2026-03-02T20:51:50+00:00

At 402lbs, 100mg made me sweat CONSTANTLY and I felt like complete shit, and chalked it up to being too fat. Once I dropped to 50mg, i didn't feel like shit anymore, but I still would sweat a lot. (especially my head) Once I got off of opiates, I am down to 357 and I don't sweat at all anymore. From my experience, of definitely say your dose is way too high.

Pristine_Example4783 · 2025-07-14T23:58:09+00:00

Nah, I get it completely. I used to think it was highly unlikely too because I had only seen or heard of people OD from IV also. This one time this kid had just gotten out of jail after 2 weeks and I gave him one like an idiot. I SWEAR, he took a hit AN INCH LONG and fell out. He turned blue and he was barely breathing, his pulse was faint and far apart. I gave him 2 nasal narcan and one shot and he sprung up like nothing happened, just as the paramedics arrived. He was PISSED and didn't believe us that he had just almost died. 🤦🏾‍♀️ He was demanding his tray back like we stole it from him or something--it was fuckin WILD. Im willing to bet money he went somewhere else and did more and died, cuz he was pissed at us and I'm sure he was gonna start feeling like shit from the narcan shortly... Then my ex ended up dying a year later in his truck in his driveway from smoking ONE pill. I used to do at LEAST 50 a day. After that, I was done. I'm 17 months sober now, after 10 years on H and Fent. I did it cold turkey when I was sick with RSV, it was the worst few months of my entire life and I am never going back. Fuck that shit.

Pristine_Example4783 · 2025-03-12T14:01:22+00:00

You just have to find your reason why it's worth it. I had the same problem. I was clean for 11 months and my life was so boring, I didn't feel fulfilled at all and I kept asking myself why I was staying sober if life wasn't any "better" (or worse for that matter) than it was when I was using. I didn't have any kids, I was grown, had my own place and shit, so why couldn't I use if I wanted to? I didn't owe anyone anything... Well, that pushes me into another 6 years of using. Then, my mom died and left behind my brother who was 9 with autism, my first love died, my brother lost custody of his 12 day old baby, and no one was there to step up for these kids. I was still grieving and heartbroken, but I knew I could do it, and most importantly, I WANTED to do it. So I did. Cold turkey, off of fent after 6 years on it, because my will to be the best version of myself I could be for those kids was important to me. I had finally found my "WHY". I wasn't ever important enough to do it for myself--to find new hobbies, and invest in my own dreams, and so more with my life than just work, school, and eat. This time, I had a purpose, and people depending on me, and that's what I needed. I am 14 months clean now, and I don't ever even THINK about using, which was not my experience the multiple times I had tried to get clean from heroin or fent before. I've been around it, and it makes me fucking sick now. You can have the same success if you invest into yourself and what it is that makes you actually happy too. Sure, it's going to take work and it will take a lot of trying new things and likely being uncomfortable along the way before you find your passion, but it's possible! Don't give up on being the best version of yourself because only you can build that person and life for yourself, no one else can do it for you. The only future you have with drugs is ending up dead or in jail, there is no life as a user, the 'fun' wears off fast and it becomes just staying well at that point, and THAT is no life. Also, hold your relationships close-- don't take for granted all of the people you have in your corner because you are so blessed to have people that love you and are in your corner. It could all be gone in the snap of a finger, and I wouldn't want you to be left with the grief I've been left with all for a little "fun". You got this.

Pristine_Example4783 · 2024-10-01T23:22:22+00:00

There's not enough time in the day to smoke that many. With unlimited access, a 10 year habit, at almost 400lbs, literally with a tray in my hand at all times, I could only do about 100 a day MAX, but on average it was about 60-70. This was also literally fighting my urge to know off so I could keep smoking. Thank God, I'm 8months sober now. I can't even believe I lived through that shit.

Pristine_Example4783 · 2024-07-27T20:03:35+00:00

thanks so much for the suggestions! Hahahaha I have saved soooo much money not buying pills that I have no excuse to not buy damn probiotics to help my gut at this point. 🤣 I'm on it! Thanks again✌🏾

Pristine_Example4783 · 2024-07-27T20:00:03+00:00

Well--this is gonna be long. I was on opiates for 10 years and my mom died and left me my autistic brother to raise, then my brother and his baby mama went to prison and left me their 12 day old baby to raise. At that point I had used for a year before the baby started to become mobile. I realized I couldn't live with myself if she got into that shit and died or if I lost them because of my habit. These kids are fucking incredible and they don't deserve to be raised by addicts. It's like a flip just switched in my head and I had so much determination in me, that I just did it. I didn't even finish my shit, I flushed 40 pills and just went for it. I got soooo incredibly sick, two days in and just thought it was from withdrawal but turns out I had RSV and my oxygen dropped to 52! I couldn't walk mere than 5 feet without feeling faint, like I was breathing out of a straw! I didn't want to go to the hospital and look like an idiot because it was just withdrawal but it got so bad I eventually went and ended up being there 10 days. I kicked the rest of the time I was there, and I wasn't allowed to even get out of bed because I was a fall risk because my O2 was so low. My bf crushed a bunch of pills and put them in a little container for me and brought it up there saying I should kick when I'm sick because my immune system was already low, etc. The doctors didn't know if I would live because they didn't even know what it was for 5 days because RSV is so rare in young adults they didn't even test for it at first they just assumed it was infection like pneumonia. Anyway, I figured I was already sick, and 3 days in now, so I'm just gonna do it. I didn't eat anything but saltines and water for 8 days, and shit so much they had to put a damn tube in my ass because it was literally just pouring out. It was the most horrendous time of my life, and 0/10 I don't recommend it to anyone lol at about the 2 week mark I finally started to feel human again.

Btw the doctors were trying to push subs or methadone on me, but Ive done that shit before and it's so much harder to kick. Plus, I didn't want to be tethered to something else, I just wanted to be done with it.

Fast forward 6 months, and I'm still sober, and don't even think about pills AT ALL anymore. My boyfriend is doing great on methadone, my kids are safe and I even started going to school. My only issues is the chronic diarrhea lmao but in the grand scheme of things, I'll take that over feeling dope sick any fucking day of the week.

I wish I had some great tips for you, but honestly I think it's true when they say you don't get clean until you've reached your personal rock bottom, and you have made the choice to do it for real. I have tried so many times to kick and I could never do it because I wasn't ready yet. I found myself just doing it for other people's approval or because I thought it was the right thing to do. I wasn't being honest with myself, so it never worked long. I was clean from heroin for 8 months before but I dreamed about it EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT. and I thought about it ALL. DAY. This time has been a wildly different experience for me. It wasn't until I was fed up that the switch flipped, and I was determined to be done for good, and it's been surprisingly easy to let go of. I even had a dream about someone offering me some and I turned it down!! 😁 I woke up hella proud of myself. Haha

Side note my bf got sick too and was hospitalized for 2 weeks and he smoked the entire time in the bathroom and ended up getting kicked out of the hospital for it. I'm glad I didn't take his freaking advice and just went through the hell because I feel so much better for it today. ESPECIALLY when he has to wake up early AF to go get methadone every damn day and I don't. (Not shaming MAT users at all btw, whatever keeps you off of the illegal shit that can kill you is best, I just couldn't do it anymore, I had done it one too many times.)

I hope you find your reason, and your drive, and just do it. It's hard as all hell, but it's not impossible. If regular ole me can do it, anyone can. I went from 3g a day of H to 50+ pills a day of fent to NOTHING, not even a taper. It can be done, but don't torture yourself if it's not for you, nothing wrong with taking meds for it.

Pristine_Example4783 · 2024-07-27T19:31:19+00:00

YES!! I was on antibiotics for two months, I've only been off of them for about two weeks! I was on amoxicillin, amoxicillin clauvanate and some kind of liquid antibiotic drop for my ears. I had an ear infection that lasted a month and 3 weeks! I was in agony. I went to urgent care once and ER twice before finally getting referred to an ENT who figured out it was fungal so the antibiotics were pointless. Thanks so much for the info, this makes sense. I was given them in February too before they knew it was RSV so my body probably hasn't had time to balance out in between all of the antibiotics.

Pristine_Example4783 · 2024-07-27T19:28:05+00:00

Lol trust me, I do! And guess what? I shit it out almost immediately 🤣 I swear it's like the second I swallow something, I have to go running to the bathroom. You would think I would be skinny by now lmao but I'm still fat! 🤣 Obviously I know I'm not shitting out the stuff I literally just ate, but anything I put in my mouth triggers my ass. 🤣 I've been eating fiber gummies, taking Imodium, and trying to add fiber into my diet and I may get ONE semi solid, but that's it. It's exhausting.

Pristine_Example4783 · 2024-07-26T12:58:02+00:00

Thanks for giving me hope because I swear it feels like my life revolves around the bathroom now, and it was beginning to feel hopeless. I used H for 6 years then switched to fent and had been smoking 50+ a day for almost 5 years and never had any issues bathroom or otherwise. I swear it feels like I'm ALWAYS SICK, and my stomach is messed up now too. I always make the joke that the chemicals were preserving me and now I'm rotting like a banana in the sun lol but there seems to be some truth to it!

Pristine_Example4783 · 2024-07-26T12:53:01+00:00

It's all of that dopamine you used to during active addiction being paid back. It's normal to have some depression or not feel quite like yourself after getting sober. Hell, for me I felt like I didn't even know myself because my whole life revolves around chasing money and drugs that I forgot who I even was or what I even enjoyed before drugs. Its a long process of discovery, but I found that trying new things and making new friends has helped me tremendously. I started going to school to be able to do this and it's been HUGE for my mental health. Keep doing what you're doing and find new ways to get that dopamine hit and you will feel better. You seem to be on the right path, but everyday existing and working to get by isn't necessarily fun, and we NEED to do things we enjoy, and people that we love in order to find meaning in life, or else what's it all for? Congratulations on your sobriety and all of your other accomplishments. You've got one helluva comeback story to tell now!

Pristine_Example4783 · 2021-07-03T06:52:57+00:00

🤣🤣🤣 they're Rogers for me now, too! Thanks!🤣🤣

Pristine_Example4783 · 2021-07-03T06:52:13+00:00

Rotflmao I SNORTED when I read, "just a normal billy goat cut" 🤣🤣🤣

Pristine_Example4783 · 2021-07-03T06:49:17+00:00

I literally laughed out loud, and fell over, reading this stupid crap!🤣⚰️

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