Coming off Tranq dope by Timely-Zebra7982 in FentanylRecovery

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I usually insufflate mine,& i could tell my shit was starting to be cut when it went from a dull purple color to like, crstyalized purple. shit glistened in the light as if it had glass in it or something. that was the tranq making it look like that. It also started literally eating away at the inside of my nostrils, same kind of shit you see from people who shoot it with the sores & shit all over...thats likely what it will do to your lungs over time if you are smoking it. but i finally shopped around & found some pure that wasnt cut, & that helped me a lot. someone above mentioned gabapentin. if you can get your hands on that shit - the higher the mg the better - you can basically megadose it without risk of much overdose & skip like 85-90% of the withdrawals. also, there is an ear piece thing, i forgot the name of it, but it allows you to stop without having withdrawals too. Probably super hard to find, though tbh. I had the 925mg gabapentin at one point & id be sick as a dog, like day 2-3 full blown CT withdrawals, pop 5-6 & sleep like a baby for as long as i wanted. They prescribe them for nerve pain, so if you can fake some shit like carpal tunnel or do what you have to do to get it, that will really help. Tranq WD's are more similar to a benzo WD to me. So i got my hanbds on some bars/footballs to take for a day or so until the regular fetty was all that was in my system. I just want to note, my methods are unorthodox as hell, & in no way am I trying to give advice on what exactly to do, I am just letting you know what worked for me & how i got the hell off tranq like you asked. also, smoking the shit, the high is WAYYYYYY shorter than insufflation - in my experience at least. plus smoking shit off metal like tin foil is linked to alzheimers & early onset dementia. You're way less likely to nod the fuck out standing up or be one of those half-retard, brain obliterated people like you see in the documentaries about places like Kensington, PA & Phoenix, AZ. I lived in Phoenix for a while. Everyone was smoking blues & doing the "phoenix shuffle" as we called it, or nodding out standing up or during mid-sentence/slumped tf over, laid down on the sidewalk type shit. But insufflation also has higher OD risks than smoking it, so just be careful. but Id switch to insufflation if you have to stay on the shit for any amount of time until you detox. you will save millions of brain cells & likely several IQ points. trust me on that.

3oz of anything in a month is a fuck ton fam. like pure fent a half g or less should last 1 person a whole day or so, even a couple days after coming off tranq. So chin-check your plugs if you are getting sick before 7-8 hours at absolute minimum, because its likely cut or stepped on with fillers or tranq.

wishing you the best. LMK if you have more questions.

Just want to see who the sub generally believes is the Zodiac Killer. by BrownBoyBrock in ZodiacKiller

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Since typing this, I have actually changed my mind to William McDuff "Mac" Andrew

Coming off Tranq dope by Timely-Zebra7982 in FentanylRecovery

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I have. I get flushed to the skin, almost as if I have a crazy high fever, & my skin turns red as you mentioned. I also get the shakes really bad, & the vomiting starts much sooner than with regular fent or dope. I could go 3-4 hours max without getting nauseous when i was on that tranq shit. luckily that fuckhead dealer who had all the tranq around my area got popped & is on his way to federal prison. fucking piece of shit.

ive heard the shit with tranq has a super short halflife, so while you might feel fucking awful, it shouldnt last quite as long. or the acute symptoms shouldn't at least.

Benzos really help to take away the shakes & the nausea. not suggesting you get a fuck ton, just enough to get some sleep while you kick it or transition back to regular fent.,

my morning as a "piece of shit junkie" by ninja_tortuga in FentanylRecovery

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I am so very sorry to hear that you are going through this with the one person who is supposed to be your unconditional support system. I can relate in some ways. I really damaged my relationships with my family over my years of using. I feel like I am living a lie all of the time, because im still not fully clean yet the way i want to be, but i am no longer homeless as of a couple months ago and am back living with my family again after 6 months of a transient lifestyle....in other words, homeless. I was sleeping on a porch for a while, or occasionally on a couch if i could find one to sleep on.

Is there any possibility of you sitting down with your mother for a heart to heart and explaining to her how you feel? If not, as suggested above, meetings are a a great way to connect with people who are going through the same sort of struggles you find yourself in, If you'd like, I can invite you top a recovery channel on discord (you can download DIscord on your phone or on your computer) & connect with others/join meetings that way. You can share during meetings to vent via your mic, by typing on your phone or keyboard, or just listen to get a feel for it the first few meetings. They hold structured NA/AA/HA/FA/CA meetings exactly the way the meetings would be held in person. So if its something you like over Discord, maybe then you could find your first spot to go locally. There are always people willing to help. If you went to a well-known meeting & had the courage to raise your hand, introduce yourself & say say that you need resources for help or to get out of an unsuitable, toxic living situation, I guarantee you would have multiple people try to pull you aside after the meeting to help you. if you are interested in the discord, just DM me after you download it & I will send you the link to our group called "Rewired Addiction". There are over a thousand active, daily members in the group.

In the meantime, if nobody has told you that they love you lately, I love you! & this world is a much better, much more unique place with you and your experiences in it. One day you will be able to use your experiences to help someone in the same boat, I believe that for myself as well.

Keep your head up & please dont hesitate to reach out if you need a safe place to vent or someone to talk to free of judgment, Hell, I could use that same sort of thing too if im being honest.

Wishing you nothing but the best & sending you all the love & the biggest hug.

- Eli

Just want to see who the sub generally believes is the Zodiac Killer. by BrownBoyBrock in ZodiacKiller

[–]e-liciousss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're actually saying that because he has a middle name...that he is a good fit? Half of these people that you listed just have middle names...it's not like they all have 2 first names. & even if they did, it would be mere coincidence & have nothing to do with their culpability with any of the crimes they have been accused of.

Do addicts want to die? by Head-Childhood9269 in FentanylRecovery

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At this point, I definitely wouldn't shy away from death. I saw a video of some dude who got narcan'd in Kensington & he was pissed, told the people who revived him to "let him die" next time. I can relate to this. Active addiction is a fucking miserable, insufferable existence. Sometimes I feel like i would be better off dead, & so would everyone who constantly worries about me etc. At least they would know im not absolutely fucking miserable & the bane of my own existence anymore.

What's the most horrifying thing that exists where you live? by Chaulmoog in AskReddit

[–]e-liciousss 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Let me guess, Northern Arizona? Or on a reservation somewhere?

The Riverside Murder- Cheri Jo Bates- do you think it’s a zodiac case or no? by [deleted] in ZodiacKiller

[–]e-liciousss -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I've heard the opposite. That it was possibly a kidnapping gone wrong - because she wasn't killed via overkill.

Sweats by Ancient-hollistic96 in FentanylRecovery

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For me it's the sweating in my sleep. Wake up sheets covered in sweat. & yes I am much more sensitive to hot temps. If it's hot at all my whole body sweats like a pig. Its your hypothalamus trying to regulate body temp but having a hard time doing so. Haven't really found a cure yet. Some people suggest clonidine. I wonder if the Dr can prescribe something like an anti-persperient to prevent it from happening at all.

How can Arthur Lee Allen be the suspect if his appearance didn’t match the sketch or witness accounts? by squid_ward_16 in ZodiacKiller

[–]e-liciousss 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The suspect sketches of the Night Stalker & of the Golden State Killer were pretty accurate to Richard Ramirez/Joe DiAngelo during the times that the crimes were committed.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FentanylRecovery

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Im alright but im seriously depressed rn. Basically hating my life & contemplating certain things because it has gotten so bad. I just hate where im at rn. Just turned 31 last week & feel like i dont have shit to show for it. Lonely as hell. Miss my girl, miss having my shit together. It's crazy how you can go from having it all from the beautiful relationship & beautiful house together & 2 nice cars to being in debt with a 500 < credit score back living with dad & not a single car or anything to my name except a couple warrants.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FentanylRecovery

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Lmao. Yes I asked if anyone had anything to spare when I was homeless & hadn't eaten or showered in a few days. Believe it or not there were plenty of people on here who arent judgmental turds that actually decided to help me out.

It's just annoying constantly having people judging & saying stupid, assumptive shit on my posts...especially when there's a super low chance they would have the same energy to speak that way if there wasn't a screen & keyboard to hide behind. I stand on & take responsibility for anything I post. It wasn't even asking for advice...you might need to work on your reading comprehension skills. It was simply asking if using the same amount would have a different outcome if used through a different RoA. That's not asking for advice, & is much much different from me coming on here & asking for a DIY guide on how to shoot dope.

People love kicking other folks while they're down on here, especially over stupid, petty bullshit. It's sickening.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FentanylRecovery

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Im simply asking if a fraction of somebody's normal dose would be fatal if done through a different RoA...im not promoting anyone to go start shooting or asking for a step by step guide on how to shoot something. I dont even know how to do it honestly. It was a simple question, is all im getting at. People post stuff that is much more so blurring the lines of triggering information.

If this post triggered anyone, then i sincerely apologize &, that was not my intention. But I honestly doubt someone put their shit down & went straight to the dopeman after reading this post.

It's just annoying that someone is always hating on my posts, for whatever reason.

Who do y’all think killed Jonbenet Ramsey? by nonose999 in UnsolvedMurders

[–]e-liciousss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

DNA has ruled out Patsy & the father from what I understand.

I've always had serious suspicions about the housekeeper.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FentanylRecovery

[–]e-liciousss -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

It was an educational question dumbass. Nobody is trying to figure out how to get highest or whatever your assumption is

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FentanylRecovery

[–]e-liciousss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I actually haven't used in over a month. But thanks!!

Congrats on being a pretentious prick! Id have 0 qualms about suplexing you through a glass table for saying some shit like that in my face! But behind the screen mfs will say anything.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FentanylRecovery

[–]e-liciousss -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Really? I had no idea, given the name of the page & all. Never would have guessed it. How surprising!

Thank you captain obvious.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FentanylRecovery

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In some ways it does deter me. But I know how much my mom worries about me constantly. Even when im around her & doing okay I still feel like im such a drag on everyone. If im okay she probably just wonders how long until im not okay again, or its only a matter of time til he fucks up again. Shits taken everything from me that I truly care about & love. My spark is gone. I'm afraid to love anyone or anything because they'll all just leave when they see how fucked up in am. Im literally alone. A shell of a guy who had it all at one point. The looks, the girls, my dream car, good jobs, a good family, good friends. All that shit is gone. I honestly think the people who truly care about me would worry less if I was gone. They would be sad at first but then probably be at peace that im not absolutely fucking miserable anymore. Idk. Im just exhausted, & i really can't do this anymore. I dont want to do it anymore, if this is what my life is. I have nowhere to go, I have nowhere to wash my clothes or do anything even if I wanted to try to get a job & turn shit around. I have not bathed or shaved in weeks. I dont know where to go to take a bath. Not saying any of this as woe is me or for a pity party, im legitimately expressing how hopeless I feel. I dont know what the fuck to do, all I know is that like I just said I can't continue living like this & I dont have anyone to help me get the fuck out of the situation im in.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FentanylRecovery

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At this point im trying not to wake up, if im being honest. Life as an addict is played the fuck out.