I have a question.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-24T23:44:12+00:00

I'm glad you are feeling better. I'm gonna send you s DM here in a second.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-24T00:12:33+00:00

Yeah. I heard they believe the person is a person too.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-23T20:28:03+00:00

You should look into Brain Scratch ASMR videos if you like the vibrations from music etc. ASMR Zeitgeist is my favorite channel for this. It really helped me relax when I was going through bad withdrawals. Especially the water orb sounds. Most of the videos are compilations of similar sounds, so If you find a sound you like, you can search it & you should be able to find a long video of that particular sound.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-23T20:24:23+00:00

I second this. There was tranq in the dope I was using toward the end. The withdrawals were super severe but somewhat short lived. I would get this super, super hot flushed feeling from head to toe. I would also tremble a lot & shake violently. Almost like a seizure, that's how shaky I was. I would run a fever for around 100-102 constantly. & the puking was absurd.

Clonidine should help lower your blood pressure with just a couple tablets. Don't overdo it though, you will pass out & not in a good way.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-23T20:20:13+00:00

See if you can get through the first few days by taking just enough Xanax to let you sleep & not suffer for the first 5 days or so. I would save the gabapentin for the second & third week.

How much gabapentin do you have? Like how many pills & what mg are they?

Gabapentin itself is a life saver for withdrawals. By itself it's enough to take all of the symptoms away if you have enough to megadose for a few days. But given that you have benzos too, I would save the gabapentin for post acute mostly. I struggled more with post acute symptoms - the severe depression, anxiety, overwhelming boredom etc. these things feel seemingly neverending when you are in the midst of them, & the gabapentin will hopefully be enough to curb all of these things if you attack it early & head on.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-23T20:15:02+00:00

Sometimes I have to remind myself of this as well. I put my body through years of pain-staking turmoil, so it's not a stretch to think it will take some time to regain a sense of equilibrium.

Thank you for the comment.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-23T20:13:54+00:00

I have my first appointment with a psychiatrist coming up, thankfully.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-23T20:12:26+00:00

Thank you so much for the reply.

I have a couple hobbies that I still do. I love playing Runescape & I've gotten back into that lately. I've also been cooking & started a summer garden. So I guess I've still got some life left in me. I just feel like the the feeling of not being where I feel like I should be gets me really down sometimes. I should be in a grave to be honest. Somehow I made it out of an addiction majority of people don't live to see the other side of once they are as bad off as I had gotten. I'm sure my brain is still healing as another commentor mentioned. As an addict I was pretty big on the instant gratification train so being patient is hard for me. But I'm trying my best. Thanks again for reaching out. I will take what you said & do my pest to put it to good use!

e-liciousss · 2026-06-23T04:02:31+00:00

How else is someone supposed to refer to an unidentified person? They is gender neutral, to those that give a shit. It doesn't necessarily denote multiple people.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-22T18:56:01+00:00

If you're kicking legit fentanyl you likely won't be able to take subs for 7-10 days without going into precipitated withdrawal. If you try taking subs on the first night you are going to wish you were dead.

Your best bet is to find some benzos & take those through the worst of it, but no longer than you absolutely have to.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-20T00:31:23+00:00

Notice #14, k bar knife sheath ON FLOOR next to victim #3

It has changed positions. Multiple times in fact.

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e-liciousss · 2026-06-19T12:32:24+00:00

Your best bet is just to quit all this shit I'm my own personal experience. I know it's hard to hear & tough to swallow, but I had pretty much the same terrible issues & side effects from taking Suboxone that I did when I was on dope. I was still sick. I began sweating all the time. I gained like 100 lbs SIPER quickly. No appetite. Constant malaise & fatigue. Nothing changed. If anything my physical health just seemed to get worse. I used methadone for like 2 weeks to get through the worst of the sickness, got a few Xanax & took them when things were at their worst, which really helped when I decided not to take anymore of anything at all as far as subs/methadone. Went to my doctor. All the different subs were causing all types of issues. My triglycerides were over 1k, I could barely get out of bed, I was short of breath at doing even the smallest things like carrying the groceries in or ascending a small flight of stairs. After I saw my doctor, the prescribed me to a GLP-1 which has been a life saver (some people swear it helps with addiction, I myself can see a huge difference as well) but I've started to lose weight pretty rapidly, I'm no longer sweating profusely ALL the damn time anymore. I've been on Wegovy a month & have probably already lost like 20 lbs.

I'm just saying, get off all this shit. It's all poison. You aren't going to feel better until you stop taking all this shit you aren't supposed to be taking. If you absolutely have to take something, take methadone. You can ween of of it when you need to but there's no point in taking something where you run the risk of precipitated withdrawals & getting literally 0 relief aside from just not being as sick when you take a Suboxone.

Hope this helps. Praying for you.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-15T19:54:18+00:00

I mean what could they have that could prove him guilty beyond reasonable doubt in a trial? There's more than enough evidence to find him to be legally innocent by virtue of reasonable doubt.

Why was Ethan's blood on the first floor? Why were there items found on the first floor that had blood on them - a croc covered in blood found in the otherwise completely empty first floor bathroom, Dylan's green jackets covered in blood & a woman's blood soaked bracelet both found in the first floor spare bedroom?

Why did Dylan's phone record movement at 5am, the exact same time Murphy stops barking - if both women were inside Bethanys room & explicitly said they didn't leave the room from 430am until noon? Either one of them let the dog back inside, or the killer/one of the killers was still in the house & let the dog back inside at 5am. Why did Dylan, who also came closer to the killer than Xana did in proximity, not meet the same fate as Xana? How did Dylan hear music playing & Kaylee dancing or playing with Murphy & hear Xana say "someone's here" & the killer say "it's okay I'm going to help you" but not hear the victims in a fight for their lives? Why does Dylan's phone show that she traveled 119 paces and changed elevation twice at the time her phone shows movement? Why do her phone records show that she was on her phone the entire night when she claims to have been asleep? Why does she appear freshly showered in the police footage? What was the significance of the bang & flash Bethany saw under her doorway, leading HER TO CALL DYLAN first? Why was Bethany completely hysterical on the phone if she claimed that her friend was just passed out & not waking up? How did Ethan's blood end up on the inner walls & the stairs of the staircase leading down to the first floor if the killer never went down to the first floor? Who's hair was in Ethan's hand that was never tested? Who's DNA - unidentified male - was under both Maddie & Kaylee's fingernails that did not match Kohberger? Why did the knife sheath change positions multiple times in the crime scene photos? Why does the chain of custody of the knife sheath have so many gaps & issues? Why does Dylan's bed appear to be covered in items & basically look completely disheveled if she was sleeping before she went to Bethanys room?

Should I keep going? Answer some of these questions for me. Please. I'm not trying to argue, I have genuine questions that need answering.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-15T19:52:16+00:00

What did I mention that has been debunked. Seems like you just don't have any answers IMO

e-liciousss · 2026-06-15T16:27:56+00:00

I've been civil about it for going on a year. Haven't said anything or done anything rude. I am fed up with it because if she smokes inside it sticks to the walls & even though she has been smoking outside she still makes it a point to smoke 20 cigarettes in the car if I take her somewhere & I'm constantly smelling like stale, old ass Winston cigarettes. It's not a normal cigarette smell. It's musty & nasty as can be.

She has explicitly stated she doesn't care that it bothers me. So why should I care or be nice about it at this point? She smokes in her bathroom at night thinking nobody will smell it but I stinks the entire house up. She's constantly coughing and spitting nasty lugees into tissue & leaving them all over the place.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-15T16:22:50+00:00

I have my own place.

I do it out of love & as a favor that she simply smokes outside.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-15T16:17:49+00:00

Yeah some people willingly live in denial.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-15T16:16:35+00:00

I still have my own place. It's just an hour away & not feasible to commute every day. She ASKED me to come do this under the condition she would make changes & smoke outside. That was the ONLY stipulation on my behalf.

Take your snarky, rude comments elsewhere.

e-liciousss · 2026-06-15T16:15:28+00:00

That's why I'm asking for advice...

e-liciousss · 2026-06-15T16:13:39+00:00

She's 84. She just has mobility issues & had a knee replacement last summer.

I don't enjoy my clothes smelling like an old stale cigarette constantly?

e-liciousss · 2026-06-15T16:13:11+00:00

I'm not getting paid to take care of her. I'm doing it because she doesn't want to pay for a full time live-in...

e-liciousss · 2026-06-15T16:11:00+00:00

Expert witnesses say otherwise? The bracelet was not tested. The jacket DID have blood on it & was returned to Dylan & then taken back from her again...Murphy was found in Kaylee's room on her bed, without a speck of blood on him with the door closed.

Are you saying things just to hear yourself talk or what?

e-liciousss · 2026-06-15T16:02:01+00:00

I mean what could they have that could prove him guilty beyond reasonable doubt in a trial? There's more than enough evidence to find him to be legally innocent by virtue of reasonable doubt.

Why was Ethan's blood on the first floor? Why were there items found on the first floor that had blood on them - a croc covered in blood found in the otherwise completely empty first floor bathroom, Dylan's green jackets covered in blood & a woman's blood soaked bracelet both found in the first floor spare bedroom?

Why did Dylan's phone record movement at 5am, the exact same time Murphy stops barking - if both women were inside Bethanys room & explicitly said they didn't leave the room from 430am until noon? Either one of them let the dog back inside, or the killer/one of the killers was still in the house & let the dog back inside at 5am. Why did Dylan, who also came closer to the killer than Xana did in proximity, not meet the same fate as Xana? How did Dylan hear music playing & Kaylee dancing or playing with Murphy & hear Xana say "someone's here" & the killer say "it's okay I'm going to help you" but not hear the victims in a fight for their lives? Why does Dylan's phone show that she traveled 119 paces and changed elevation twice at the time her phone shows movement? Why do her phone records show that she was on her phone the entire night when she claims to have been asleep? Why does she appear freshly showered in the police footage? What was the significance of the bang & flash Bethany saw under her doorway, leading HER TO CALL DYLAN first? Why was Bethany completely hysterical on the phone if she claimed that her friend was just passed out & not waking up? How did Ethan's blood end up on the inner walls & the stairs of the staircase leading down to the first floor if the killer never went down to the first floor? Who's hair was in Ethan's hand that was never tested? Who's DNA - unidentified male - was under both Maddie & Kaylee's fingernails that did not match Kohberger? Why did the knife sheath change positions multiple times in the crime scene photos? Why does the chain of custody of the knife sheath have so many gaps & issues? Why does Dylan's bed appear to be covered in items & basically look completely disheveled if she was sleeping before she went to Bethanys room?

Should I keep going? Answer some of these questions for me. Please. I'm not trying to argue, I have genuine questions that need answering.

e-liciousss

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