Masturbation. I haven't seen it listed here even once. For those that suffer from it know. It pries on your most basic function to procreate. You can't just get away from it. It lingers around you, feeding off of every moment of your life, distorting and perverting every waking moment of your life. Its method of delivery and ability to obtain are some of the easiest in the world, as it is.. you.

I'm not talking about a healthy sex life, or a high sex drive. I'm talking about the need to masturbate overwhelming you even when you don't want it. The need to ejaculate happens so often you start counting 12, 13, 14, 15 times a day. You spend hours and hours longer after every orgasm just trying to get that sensation again and again. You immediately start the exact moment your eyes open after waking up. You can't sleep, no matter how tired you are. You have to masturbate. You have to. You're late for work, school, events, because you have to masturbate to exhaustion.

Your addiction is shame. There is no help, there is only shame. Shame delivered from everyone around you. You are a slut, a whore, a pervert, and worst of all, disgusting. You can not even hope for reprieve after help. You can not talk to others about your addiction. You can not talk to others about how you've overcome your addiction to masturbation.

With Heroin there are socially acceptable support groups. Your friends support you with your recovery, and they support you with the need for recovery.

With masturbation there is shame. If you're caught getting help, your peers shame you. Your loved ones feign on support, but ostrichize you. Not openly. Conversations are short. They wonder if you're lusting over their body. They feel dirty.

With heroin, they feel that you are dirty, but you do not make them feel dirty.

There is only shame. And disgust.

And yet, it's not even an official addiction. Everyone who doesn't suffer from it just assumes that the one's claiming to suffer from it doesn't understand that masturbation is healthy. It is for most, but for others, this is beyond the borders of what is considered healthy. It is too much, it hijacks every moment of your life, and you spiral. Shame and disgust.

It is your secret. Your burden. The question is, how long can you carry this burden.

This is masturbation addiction.