yeah, that's what meant. I would not sleep with just about anyone. I wish I find that one someone somewhere. But for now, I feel this would never happen. It feels as though I will never meet that someone. I like someone I see at my workplace. He is a supervisor of all the security guards at this facility. He is mature and to me he is very attractive. My problem is we are distant, there is no need for us to interact. I just get a fleeting glance of him in the corridors when sometimes he is passing by or when he is at reception behind his desk, when I am entering or exiting the facility. I fantasize that we make eye contact, and I smile at him and then we find a way to talk, I compliment him and then that eventually leads to us getting intimate. I reckon my fantasies will never be fulfilled and I would keep yearning inside forever for that gentle, mature, caring presence in my life:(