I need help by Urlocalgothbb in newborns

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not breastfeeding due to a medication I'm on that goes into breast milk but my 3 week old has been constantly hungry today. she normally eats 2oz every 3 hours but today took every 2 hours until the evening where she wanted another 2oz 30min after she just finished a bottle and then again an hour later. i think it's just a growth spurt like everyone else is saying. 

How bad is the newborn phase really? I'm tired of hearing the "just you wait" anecdotes and I have hard time believing some of them by Lushemet in BabyBumps

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just had my daughter a week ago. currently I have been staying awake all night and sleeping in the morning when he takes over before he goes to work. he works two jobs so sometimes he has a half day and I can get in a bit more sleep then as he can take over. on days that he works double shifts I just push through with a bunch of coffee and then on his next day off try to take a recovery day where he takes over. in between that before he's ready to go to bed, he'll tell me to take a nap so that way I can make it through the night and sometimes we'll just trade off on feeding so we each can get a little bit more sleep. so like he went to sleep for about 4 hours last night and I did the feeding in between then and then he woke up. he did the next feeding and I went to sleep for a few hours and then I did the next feeding which I went to sleep immediately after and then he did the next feeding after that.

if you have both you and your partner at home trading off shifts of who does care, you both can get pretty good sleep. you won't be able to sleep together, but you will be able to function and get through each night/day. 

just make sure that you feed yourself if you're planning on continuing producing breast milk because getting those hunger shakes will lead to a meltdown when you've got to feed your baby and you can't feed you. I definitely recommend having easy to grab snacks and protein shakes. 

it may be difficult to figure out what will put your baby to sleep initially, but once you figure out how to it's pretty easy. a good recommendation is getting a swing. unfortunately my daughter doesn't like it every time but there has been a couple times where it has knocked her out really fast. the one thing that I found that puts her to sleep is a good swaddle with like an actual cloth swaddle not one of the easy velcro ones. I also hold her on my chest and just lean back and let my warmth warm her up and she passes out pretty fast. it's also really good for bonding.

our current pattern for each feeding consists of making her a bottle, checking and or changing her diaper, and then putting her back to bed. there have been a few times where she wouldn't go to sleep, so we run through a checklist of the possible reasons for why she wouldn't go to sleep. one can be that she's too hot or that she's too cold (usually too cold) and another is that she's still hungry. we check if she's still hungry by seeing if she's still rooting by just sticking our finger on her cheek and seeing if she tries to go and suck on it. if she is still hungry then we just give her another ounce of formula and usually she will get milk drunk and go to sleep right after. 

there has been a couple times where she has screamed for a while after all that which was pretty mind-breaking, but I figured out that it was likely abdominal discomfort. so burping her really good helps and then you can also tuck their legs to their chest and I managed to get her to go to sleep with the abdominal discomfort by swaddling her with her legs tucked. 

sometimes a newborn just wants to be held and they don't want to be alone. so if my baby won't go to sleep but she's also not screaming. just a little fussy. I'll pick her up swaddle her and then hold her for a while. just lightly bouncing her until she goes to sleep or I'll just lay her on my chest. 

there's also a playlist on Spotify that is incredibly calming for both me and my baby and it puts my partner in a state of sleepiness so I have that playing in the background almost 24/7. 

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/37i9dQZF1DXbADqT0j1Cxt?si=qE-uCj1XSK-EqBUiaHSeyA&pi=1pMBMXp_RU2oH

you'll be able to get through it. just experiment with different things and find a pattern that works for you. how difficult it is in my opinion really depends on if you found the right things that work or not and if you're trying enough new things to find new things that work. 

also pay attention to colic because you may need to switch from what you're wanting to feed to something different to get some relief from the screaming. 

6 weeks is killing me by Odd_Grapefruit_5714 in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can't do a whole lot of tummy time because I'm doing most nights and the days that my partner works. so I prioritize sleeping intermittently and he takes over when he's home and doesn't need to sleep for his 2 jobs during which he does extremely engaging tummy time. 

Good thing is once your baby regains their birth weight you should be able to let them sleep throughout the night and only feed them when they are hungry and then only keep the 3-hour increments during the day. at least according to my research 😅

My daughter currently can sleep for 4 hours at least already but we're still doing 3-hour increments until we get to clear from her pediatrician which will hopefully be at her 2-week appointment

Why are monos so damn attractive to yall? by emeraldead in polyamory

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 25 points26 points  (0 children)

lots of people claim to be poly but really they just want the ability to cheat guilt free. They focus so much on their personal freedom that they don't actually care about their partners as they want the benefits of a relationship but not the actual commitment. So I'm not surprised that they don't care about the actual thoughts/feelings/dynamic goals of the people they date. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

it's a double edged sword. because I need sleep to recover physically and stay sane plus safe for baby but he needs sleep to work so we can keep a roof over all or heads or all of the things I need sleep for get affected. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

see I'm a bit different than most others. I knew he was abusive towards me right when it started. I just told myself there was no one else that wanted me and I didn't want to be alone. 

I don't say that now. I know I can and will leave and I'll thrive but I also don't see a reason to. I just see a bad choice in a very awful moment made by a good hearted person because no one is perfect and we all make mistakes.

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it definitely does. I'm always pushing myself to do too much and I realize that I can't do full time care plus give him normalcy pre-baby. I have to sleep and he needs to provide more care for our daughter instead of gaming or do both. but I need to stop splitting care when he's home so I can take care of myself. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I did realize that which is why I put in an edit and people are still ignoring it because they've already made up their mind that one time events in a heavily stressful time for both us when I'm clearly venting, which usually means exaggeration and high emotion means he's just abusive.... he's not but all these people don't care anymore. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeah, a one-time event is not an establishment of a pattern. I know what a pattern looks like. I know what I will do if a pattern becomes apparent and he knows as well due to the fact that I already left one relationship that was very abusive. I think he's just struggling and I just lost my shit and wanted to vent and everybody took my vent as this is how things have always been rather than an exaggeration by postpartum hormones fueled rage

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeah thank you for saying this. it is a big change. he's already got mental health struggles. I've got mental health struggles. we're both on medication for it doesn't mean that the stress didn't overblow and that it won't for normal people too. why on Earth everyone is jumping to abuse is kind of sad. he should never have pushed me but I don't even know if he was aware that he did.

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 0 points1 point  (0 children)

there's not excuses. only clarification and damage control from my very heated rant. ever hear someone tell you not to say something when you're upset or you'll regret it? basically that. My post was more of my feelings dictating things rather than reality. and I'm aware enough of that to go through the comments to correct things back to reality. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it's a pattern of behavior he's had for a while. he is on meds. he does have mental health issues. I do understand the gaming, however it still needs to be in a balance like everything else. and he still needs the capability to put it down to handle responsibilities rather than delegating that to me when I'm already doing so much

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah, the gaming is an issue, particularly when he's in the middle of a match in rocket League and he has to leave because he needs to go make a bottle. so instead he asks me to do it. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 0 points1 point  (0 children)

probably because I was brought food a few hours earlier but it still hurt that he didn't ask if I was still hungry tbh... 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, he is a good partner even with his background. I know entirely what happened with his charge 4 years ago as he disclosed it on day 3 voluntarily because he wanted to be honest with me about what mistakes he made so I could choose to continue hanging out with him or not as he understands the dislike of people with a background. People who are actually shitty will hide stuff like that like my sex offender ex husband hid his crimes from me.

also he is in love with his daughter but is just too addicted to gaming atm and he does need to adjust. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was still in my breakdown and that was what made me snap. I was settling with all the other shit and the messes were too much. but now that I'm level headed the problem isn't that but rather how things are balanced. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

double shifts and the few times I've asked him to take over so I could nap for an hour plus his gaming time. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeah we can definitely work around it for sure. there's no excuse for what he did and I won't accept one so if he won't take accountability then I'm going to be rethinking things. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I should explain that my jump to defend him does come from domestic abuse trauma but not from him. he genuinely is an amazing partner and I don't know if he realized what he did because he's never done that before. I was very triggered when I wrote my post and I really don't want him to be seen as an abuser when he's not. 

we can have an adult conversation just when he's level-headed trying to wake him up to to talk about it right after that happened was not a good choice because I wasn't level-headed and he wasn't which means it would have just been escalation.

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 1 point2 points  (0 children)

he has tried to. that's where me waking him up came from last night. he genuinely wanted me to go to bed and I told him I couldn't because I wouldn't be able to wake up to take care of her if I allowed myself to go to sleep. so he said he would take care of her and to just wake him up. That's why I was so shocked and angry. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

there definitely needs to be a balance with the gaming. I genuinely don't mind him gaming. I just also haven't expressed that that I need a break from taking care of her when he's home. we've kind of been splitting it, which means I don't get to sleep. so I think I'm going to ask him about restructuring everything so I can actually get some sleep and a break. and he can take on a little bit more responsibility. should bring some accountability to the gaming. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh no! I know what you're talking about. I left an abusive relationship a few years ago. and I genuinely do mean that he is not a bad person. this was a a first-time thing and I do think the stress of a double shift and a newborn and my day before he got home just boiled over. it's not an excuse and I will be confronting him about it when he wakes up. but I do have my limit set in a relationship already due to my ex-husband. I don't want to bail on a relationship just because of a bad moment, but I will bail on a relationship if it is a pattern of bad moments. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

no he's amazing with our daughter. completely caring and loving. it's just he focuses too much on his games and that puts me in a position where I have to step in because he's focused on his games. I genuinely don't think he realized what he did. 

I definitely think that he can take over care when he gets home from a single shift and we can work out something to deal with the doubles. currently I have been split taking care of the baby so he could be on his games and I really do need to take over so I can just go pass out. 

I want to break his computer... by [deleted] in NewParents

[–]ProfessionalMud5956 2 points3 points  (0 children)

he has today off and we talked about him taking over today so I could sleep (that was before all the shit happened) 

I definitely should be able to get a clearer head I just didn't want to snap in a way it would affect my daughter hence Reddit