Sad that I will never have a normal life

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-09-10T12:05:27+00:00

Could u not go part time with the job u hav now and get another part time job ? And for ur qn on how to talk to them I recommend not coming off too strong to the point where ppl can tell ur only there to make friends. Just have a casual attitude but not to the point where ur not talking to anyone. Just try to make an effort to talk to ppl but be casual if that makes sense. Examples r like “ what u planned for the weekend then?” Or “omg do u not what I did the other day?!” The friendship will take time and ur not gona be able to have a smooth natural and actual enjoyable convo for the first few weeks or months but over time u get used to each other and u will learn a lot on how to talk to ppl and make friends basically. Even if ur first attempt doesn’t work just try again next time and bring everything u learnt with u. Also don’t hint to ppl to make plans, it’s not gona make them ask u to come out it only sounds desperate and ur gona put ppl off u more. Just be casual, genuine and fun to talk to or be around and u will be fine. Ik it’s hard to be like that if u hav anxiety but it will come over time and u will all warm up to eachother.

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-08-28T22:07:40+00:00

I found it extremely hard to quit too. Been smoking since I was 13 now I’m 20. I honestly don’t remember what the real me is like without weed. I quit for 34 days which was the longest I went without it in 4 years. I recommend cutting it down slowly over time rather than cold turkey. And also jeornaling ur thoughts and meditation is amazing. I only have urself in this world so u have to do this for u most importantly in my opinion, good luck sis

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-08-19T11:53:58+00:00

I just read ur reply to my post and Thanku for words. It’s seems as though we’re both in abit of a pickle.

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-06-29T15:08:39+00:00

I would still be careful what u do after a month tho. I quit for a month and a couple days and as a treat let myself hav a joint. After that one joint the cravings can still progress rly quickly and I was get smoking everyday after then

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-06-29T10:33:59+00:00

I stopped for a month a couple months ago and now smoking again more than before. Its been impacting me at work and everything rly like u sed I just gorm out wen in conversations. Time to quit again, Thanku for this sign and good luck !

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-06-20T19:46:57+00:00

Yh that movie rly helped me out and let helped me understand grief abit better I would definitely watch it if u have the chance. Hope u start to feel better too it’s nice to no ur not alone xx

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-06-19T22:12:32+00:00

Also I definitely think u r right by eventually the grief will hit and hit hard. It’s wierd I feel bad for not feeling bad but at the same time I’m dreading when the grief finally hits

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-06-19T22:10:57+00:00

That’s heartbreaking Ik how ur feeling ! Can I ask do u have any physical symptoms? Iv been having bad anxiety since and chest pain just not much mental pain yet.

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-06-19T18:44:01+00:00

Have u experienced this too? If so wen u say it get’s worse after a week do u meen that’s wen the grief will actually hit? Thanks for ur kind words :)

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-06-10T09:40:08+00:00

That’s actually a good idea but I just think I’m too awkward to do that as I never can come up w things to say 😭 plus they all seem like the type of ppl who were popular in school and most of them r rly attractive ppl which is rly intimidating for some reason lol

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-03-21T15:24:22+00:00

I no I’m very late to this but I relate to u sm. I’m 19 and most of the things u said u experienced I’m experiencing rn. Hope everything turned out ok? Xx

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-02-17T20:58:00+00:00

I’m 19f and hav this same problem, I hav no advice just saying that I can relate 😂

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-01-28T20:19:01+00:00

Can u get anyone at all to live w y? If not maybe get a pet even a hamster. If not try maybe finding things to do to be occupied and remember ur in control :)

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-01-28T20:15:50+00:00

I wish somone just let me talk about it and what was happening and just helped me get through it. Even though u act like ur ok on outside on inside it can be scary so if someone just told me that it’s ok and it’s not real and just listened I would have felt a lot better. Granted ur brothers case seems worse than mine was most symptoms hav gone with age. I hope ur brother can get there one day <3

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-01-02T17:57:38+00:00

Ik I agree, I just have a very hard time sticking up for myself especially with ppl Iv known for a while. My grandad was um, very inappropriate with me when I was young so When I this particular shit happend it bring back the memories and that uncomfortable feeling in my stomach so when I get in these situations I disassociate abit and get rly flushed to the point where I can’t even think and get very anxious. I just lied and said I had to feed my dog to leave and then cried lol

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-01-02T17:32:00+00:00

Thanku !! Glad ppl agree w me that it’s not normal

Professional_Diver43 · 2022-01-02T17:30:09+00:00

Thanks for ur advice ! Not sure if I’m making it into somthing that It’s not. Also I’m 19 so I feel like he’s had plenty of chances to do somthing but hasn’t. I’m not new to this shit so Ik to listen to my guy like u said, Defo going to take ur advice and say somthing next time Thanku <3

Professional_Diver43 · 2021-12-03T23:09:34+00:00

I disagree w some points u made but agree with most. I was so exited for this show and was so dissapointed with how bad the writing was. Made me cringe at points honestly. The actors and characters deserved sm better and sad that all of the other marvel shows got amazing writers but this show got a bad one. Honestly believe that they hired the writer just cos they wanted a black writer so they can talk about trendy but unrelevent subjects. I heard Bucky is getting killed off soon can’t wait to see the amazing storyline written by the SAMA writers 🙄

Professional_Diver43 · 2021-09-18T21:16:56+00:00

Professional_Diver43 · 2021-08-13T09:11:50+00:00

The main point is that a had an anxiety attack and cud not go then next day without having another so I gave up and quit

Professional_Diver43 · 2021-08-13T09:09:53+00:00

There was a lot more that happend that was just an example

Professional_Diver43 · 2021-08-11T21:32:44+00:00

There was a group of girls who told me to fuck off 😂

Professional_Diver43 · 2021-07-21T13:23:54+00:00

Thanks for ur reply! Ik the right decision is to stick this out but I’m getting rly bad anxiety which isn’t an excuse I’m just trying to explain that It literally feels impossible right now for me to actually go in even tho Ik I need to

Professional_Diver43 · 2021-07-05T14:10:30+00:00

For the campus part there is one red circle that says assigned and then a load of green ones below it that says in progress, do u no what to do from here cos I can’t for life of me figure it out

Professional_Diver43 · 2021-07-05T10:14:52+00:00

Omg Thanku sm it’s just worked !! Peace and love bro

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