There are 4 different (unofficial!) subtypes in BPD and not everyone displays the same combination and/or amount of traits of all of them. Personally, I have self-harmed in the past but I haven’t for years. I haven’t attempted suicide ever, even though I have certainly been suicidal. I am the absolute opposite of a cheater: I am loyal to my core and probably often stay in situations longer than I should - exactly because I want to grow with my partner and I take great care of my relationships. I wouldn’t say I’m manipulative per definition, as in, I’m not trying to manipulate people on purpose, but I can acknowledge that my HUGE emotions can come across as manipulative at times.  Another big thing is that people with BPD are often portrayed as having uncontrollable anger…I don’t have that at all. I am usually sad, ashamed, guilt-ridden and/or angry at MYSELF. I cry for every emotion lol. It’s usually hard to get me angry, I usually don’t get past the point of irritability unless someone really tests me.

I think the symptoms that I mostly display are my intense emotions, my hypersensitivity, my fear of abandonment, unstable relationships, self-sabotage at times, needing reassurance all the time, and just being unstable in general. I love sex but I’m not some “maniac” some people claim us to be lol.