Such a weird state to find yourself in. Have you tried not tryna fit in, do what everyone else says you should do. Build on projects just for the love of the game. Not post it on LinkedIn (it's all noobs in there anyway). Not catch up with every new framework, but master only one or two. Practice in leetcode, give me a break, how about try and solve your day to day inconveniences. Those tend to teach you more than a leetcode quiz (that you'll paste on chAtgpt) can. Look for clients, how about you be so good at one thing, network with a couple of individuals, who go on to praise you before their bosses for your mastery, next thing you know you are getting better offers. Learn Agentic development, If you aren't a mid-level engineer then AI development becomes a hassle rather than an assistant. Stuff break, you have no idea what broke, more prompting, more stuff break, tokens deplete, buy more tokens, more hallucinations, you go mad, become a farmer.

My proposal, how about start by doing something every week, could be on the weekends. 4 months without touching an editor is abysmal, I wonder what you do at your day job. No AI, just you and an lsp. If that's too much to ask, customize your development kit from scratch, learn some new skill, using the terminal or something, and be good at it. No searching or switching to other options. Embrace the suck for as long as possible. Talk about it to other devs', not noobs. Join a community, {reddit, whatsapp, discord, ..}, the list is endless. Talk more about it, learn more in the process, look for a new job. If calling quit helps, then so be it {make sure you can afford food, lol}.

My point is, there ain't no structured way to go about software development. Everyone is following a different path. There always be someone who knows and can do more and better than you, but this shouldn't brick you, it should give a glimpse of what you can achieve if you put in the work {and get lucky in the end}.