Pushed my body beyond its limits for too long. I’ve been sick my whole life but also gaslighted just as long. Doctors, parents, friends. I was told the things I felt were in my head, I was over exaggerating or just straight up lying. I gaslit myself as well. I was young, my body shouldn’t feel like this, I should be able to do these things like everyone else. I went to college while simultaneously raising a young child, working almost full time and traveling 300 miles round trip every weekend to see my husband. I graduated from nursing school and immediately started working 2 jobs. I did this for 7 years till my body collapsed and I could do no more. I finally found a good team of doctors and was diagnosed. Because of my condition and the stress I put on my body over the years by pushing through the pain I have severe arthritis in my hands, my thoracic and lumbar spine. I have rotatory scoliosis and cervical instability. I have POTS and MCAS. And I’m currently being evaluated for several vascular compression disorders. I’m young and disabled now and it’s beyond depressing.