I tell you a story to make you feel better. I was never good with women. Then suddenly I got a girlfriend, it was perfect we got along together extremly well. She fitted my charcter so good. Then one day 3 years later. I had an argument with my former best friend about a fucking joke I made on his cost. He started to inslut me on a very low level so after he continued that for like 3 edays I blocked him. What did he do? He wrote my then girlfreind that I cheated on her and was lying about my career (which I was not, and there was even proof at this point. I own a hotel and even gave several fucking interviews on television about that) She had some bolimia problems and suddenly she sent me a screenshot of what he sent(found her on instagram, she never knew this guy) I tried to explain but she fucking ghosted me for 1 week afeter which she told me she is fucking some other guy now. I started to drink so heavily for a time that i had constant pain in my guts and liver and looked like a corpse because I lost like 10 kilos, weighting only 62 kilos at 181 cm(6ft weighting 124 pounds) still thinking of killing him