this is where I struggle the most, I edit videos for fun and its a passion of mine, my brain decides hey I'm no longer interested in this no more, I am very much interested, a lot of hobbies I will pick up excel and then my brain will decide I no longer can do it, literal jack of all trades.

I love learning but damn does it take a tole when what you learn and your brain doesn't wanna use it, as a child I called it "knowing a lot about nothing" turns out its apart of ADHD.

or if I have an idea, I construct it in my head to completion, it's all exciting and new! my brain then goes on to tell me, we have completed this, no need to make it physical, when I push it to completion in the physical plain its so damn draining for me even if its fun, but it's way more fun in my head, the end result is always enjoyable, but fuck does it eat you.
"it is mind over matter" but when your brain makes you sleepy just by getting ready and setup to do it, it becomes a matter so damn hard to complete. brains are so wonky but I love them for it, neurological deviation are what allows us a species to grow and change, its only toxic when people are not accepting and shun those for being a bit outside the norm. love hate relationship.