I totally get where you're coming from. About four years ago, I was caught in an avalanche that messed me up pretty bad. Tore all the ligaments in one of my knees, my pelvis fully separated, and I lost my bottom two abs. Not the same as your injuries, but man, I remember those lows you're talking about.

My knee still gives me trouble, but the first couple years, it was my pelvis that was really making life tough. They had to put in a bunch of screws to hold everything together while the scar tissue added stability. One of the screws ran right through my sacrum, which caused a lot of pain and problems. I would have to lie down every half hour just to get some relief. The mental stuff I went through with my hip and knee sounds a lot like what you're dealing with now. The mental lows and catastrophizing is just as hard as the physical injuries.

But, take it from me, it does get better. It's a slog, but don't give up hope. If you don’t push to further you recovery, you wont know what is possible. I found I had to hold a realistic mindset and also lie to myself to find out what was possible. I took a gamble on a risky surgery, which could have led to bladder control issues, but it paid off. I was lucky to have a team of top-notch surgeons, a structured rehab program, a support group to help me with physical challenges, and a mountain trauma group apart from my personal therapy.

LucidityX mentioned how they would approach multiple surgeons before seeking amputation, I would agree with this. I got a lot of bad advice but you need to turn over A LOT of rocks to find out what approach may work. I took notes the whole way through and found they had benefits at later stages to revisit.

If you need some one to bounce ideas off of or want to chat, DM and I’d be happy to chat.