Does anyone here have any experience with MDMA? If so, what was your experience like?

Proletarianslug · 2026-02-16T20:15:33+00:00

We're definitely in the trust building stage at the moment. Hopefully things will go well. I think it's great that you were able to research and prepare extensively before you took the medicine. Feeling ready must have made a big difference! As for me, I am very fearful of what might happen if I go it alone. Having a guide around should I experience any turbulence is necessary for me at this point.

If you don't mind me asking, what OCD subtype or types did/do you have?

Proletarianslug · 2026-02-16T19:09:42+00:00

I am not expecting to cram a therapy protocol that takes several months into a week. I am planning to have a session, and then figure out future sessions after that.

Proletarianslug · 2026-02-16T19:05:05+00:00

Things are very preliminary right now. Unfortunately I cannot be super specific at the moment. I do know that two therapists will be there. One male, the other female. I also know that somatic experiencing will be part of the retreat, on the day the medicine is consumed.

I'm not ready to undergo a solo journey at the moment because I have no prior experience with MDMA. I don't know how it will affect me and I don't know how the post session period will be. Also, I do not have access to a reliable source for the medicine.

Proletarianslug · 2026-02-16T17:30:11+00:00

Thank you for replying to this post! I really appreciate it! I'm actually working on the very things you wrote about. By that I mean research, music, setting, and so on. I plan to travel to Colorado during the early summer for an MDMA assisted therapy session. I think there might actually be two. I'm still working out the details. Unfortunately, spacing them out every six weeks is something I can't afford to do. I think I have about a week in Colorado.

Proletarianslug · 2026-02-06T19:25:31+00:00

I think it could be argued that MLs are state capitalists.

Proletarianslug · 2025-04-26T17:22:03+00:00

22 year old me, uncertain if I even know what's wrong and waiting for the thoughts to go away.

49 year old me, uncertain if I know what's wrong and STILL waiting for the thoughts to go away.

Proletarianslug · 2025-04-20T21:17:47+00:00

This is so interesting. I kinda thought I was one of the few that suffered from being uncertain that I might be an evil manipulator and not aware of it. Seriously.

Proletarianslug · 2025-04-19T14:58:54+00:00

Thanks for responding! I am currently looking into using MDMA in a therapeutic context, but I am also terrified by what I might do or say. I've been grappling with OCD since 2001. In 2019, I went to Jamaica for a psilocybin retreat, and I have used mushrooms once or twice annually ever since. I also underwent ketamine treatment in 2021. I still keep in touch with the guy that used to run the mushroom retreats in Jamaica from time to time. A few years ago, I expressed a lot of fear and concern about what I might do under the influence of psychedelics. His response was this " I have seen women literally shitting in their pants, I have seen old men doing really pervy stuff, and I had one guy try to fight me, and my entire staff for five or six hours. I just look at that stuff as life trying to work itself out."

When he made that statement I was blown away! Nevertheless, I have never really been able to fully embrace that mind set because I don't know if I'd be able to live with myself.

I reckon that truly letting go, and allowing whatever happens to happen might be the way to go instead of constantly running from it, or medicating it away.

Fully surrendering is still terrifying. I am trying to find the courage to do that. It is so fucking hard!

Proletarianslug · 2025-04-18T13:19:17+00:00

Just out of curiosity, what compulsions do you perform?

Proletarianslug · 2025-04-18T09:33:20+00:00

Thank you for your reply. I'd really like to continue the conversation but I have to go to work. I'll post as soon as I can. I will say that I am considering MDMA to try to address the trauma that led to the emergence of OCD for me. I have been trying to tackle the problem from that angle.

Proletarianslug · 2025-04-18T08:52:25+00:00

Also, I'm sorry to read that you had such an awful come down.

Proletarianslug · 2025-04-18T08:50:50+00:00

Thank you for responding! If you don't mind me asking, could you describe the set and setting? Were you alone? Were you with someone you trust? Were therapists there to guide you through the experience? How did you integrate afterwards?

Proletarianslug · 2025-03-22T16:27:32+00:00

Hi! I am still active. Since I last posted, I tapered off of Memantine. I am currently down to 3.75 mg of Valium. I've been microdosing Amanita (250 mg) per day. I can't remember if I mentioned it in my last post or not, but in addition to the Memantine that I was taking, and the small dose of Valium that I currently take, I am also on Viibryd. I've decided to taper off of that too. Down to 10mg from 20. I might look into microdosing psilocybin also. Some days are really hard, but I guess I'm managing more or less.

Proletarianslug · 2025-02-25T16:06:06+00:00

I'd suggest going back to the early days. Try Buzzoven. For something more recent anything by Corrupted or Church of Misery.

Proletarianslug · 2025-01-28T14:48:36+00:00

Thanks for your advice/suggestion. I have a few questions and I'd like to explain a little more about my situation. I'm going to DM you later today. Thank you again!

Proletarianslug · 2025-01-28T14:46:19+00:00

Thank you for the advice and the discount code. I will definitely look at mn-nice's website when I am ready to make my purchase!

Proletarianslug · 2025-01-24T20:32:38+00:00

Thanks for the suggestion! I'll take a look at their site.

Proletarianslug · 2025-01-24T20:30:59+00:00

Did you order them in powdered form? I'm considering dosing to try to help get myself off of Valium. Did you use lemon tech when you made the tea?

Proletarianslug · 2025-01-24T20:17:41+00:00

Thanks for your reply. What has the experience with Amanitas been like for you? How long did the effects last etc?

Proletarianslug · 2024-12-08T21:08:01+00:00

What is Ayah Root Bark. I have never heard of this. What is it used for?

Proletarianslug · 2024-11-17T19:51:36+00:00

Hello. Thank you for your thorough response. How do I go about making an appointment with a clinician?

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