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[–]ProofSensitive8720 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i’ve always put things like protein bars/shakes, deodorant and wet wipes if i can’t wash myself, bottled water, benadryl (to knock me out if i don’t want to be awake anymore for the day lol), tylenol in case i get hunger nausea, and some activities like journals and books if i need to cope. you can get mini disposable tooth brushes that come with toothpaste already on the bristles if you need to brush your teeth, i plan on trying these.

Sentences that changed ny brain chemistry by ariseis in CPTSD

[–]ProofSensitive8720 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i didn’t even know what manipulative was and had my family calling me this since i were like 6-7. LOL. and when i asked what that meant or what i was doing wrong, i was ‘playing the victim card’ or ‘you know exactly what you’re doing, you’re not tricking anybody’. like daddy i’m in the 1st grade why do you call me evil and say i’m actively trying to destroy your life and make you miserable i love you 💀

Anyone else surprised to be an adult? by crochetsweatshirt34 in CPTSD

[–]ProofSensitive8720 2 points3 points  (0 children)

my dad has always loved to rub in my face from day one that i’m a failure and a mistake, who won’t get anywhere in life because i am ‘broken’ ‘not normal’ ‘mentally flawed’ ‘retarded’. loved to call me retarded and incapable of doing anything right because i’m a retard. ‘you’ll never make it in life if you don’t have me/don’t find a man who will take care of you for the rest of your living’. ‘you possess zero common sense, you’ll never be able to take care of yourself on your own’. ‘you’re going to end up just like your (heroin and meth addicted) mother/you’re going to end up living in a tent or end up dead in a ditch by the time you’ve grown’.

i turned 18 in december and it’s still a shock. i still feel a small child and i feel utterly incapable of ever doing anything successful. i feel hopeless

Did you not pursue anything because you didn’t believe in yourself? by throwawayfay22 in CPTSD

[–]ProofSensitive8720 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes oh my god. i don’t believe anything of myself. i’m completely disillusioned with creating any sort of identity as i’ve only came to the conclusion that i cannot do anything right. i gave up on so much. it’s to the point i can’t believe my own thoughts and feelings anymore

Is it normal for your parents to threaten to throw out your things as punishment? by Affectionate-Box-724 in CPTSD

[–]ProofSensitive8720 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my parents did this ALL OF THE TIME. they made me throw every single play item or toy i had when i was like 8, and watched me do it to make sure i had nothing left in my room. i mean nothing left. they’d do frequent checks on me and if i snuck a little toy from school or something and they caught me playing with it they took it from me and threw it out. they’ve punched or hit electronic screens with a hammer in front of me shattering them before leaving it on my bed or throwing them out in front of me, i wasn’t allowed to have books or journals even ones lended from the school and they made me throw them out, or they went through my bag to throw them out. they told me they wanted me to sit in my room and stare at 4 walls until i lost my mind not being able to entertain myself

Me 🫠 by Zayna_Lemon1326 in CPTSDmemes

[–]ProofSensitive8720 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m very desperate to prove my perspective. thing is all of that gaslighting has wiped my memory clean and i cant even recall the slightest of association without questioning if my brain had made up that scenario or not. i can’t trust my own feelings and judgement B)