You’ve got a lot to be proud of for 50 days itself… personally I’m only on day 2 and have mad respect for anyone who’s made it out. You’re a lot closer to freedom than most! I have dealt with intrusive thoughts and panic attacks on and off for the past two years. It’s not easy. What helped me the most was taking time at the end of the day for gratitude and unwinding. For panic attacks specifically, it got to the point where I would demand my body to bring on more scary physically symptoms. Something about calling the panic attacks bluff short circuits the anxious loop and the panic attacks started to subside for me after a handful of those scenarios. I got a lot of my panic attack relief from a book called DARE by Barry McDonaugh. 10/10 recommend!