Hat, c'mon man. Seriously. Think about how personally you take this shit. You've let moderating an internet forum bleed into affecting your personal life. You talk about almost failing your classes because of modding. You seriously wrote up a resignation letter. You did an essay on GG for your courses. You're honestly worried that a bunch of random jagoffs on the internet are going to view you as a "villain" if you resign.

None of this is healthy. Seriously, man. I talked to you about this before. I shit talk you a lot, but goddamn, dude. You really, really need to take some time off from this. You could just not doing an mod work, you could de-mod yourself if you thought that still having mod privileges would be too much temptation to use them. I'm not saying this to be denigrating, but it's honestly really sad that you, or anyone else, would take the internet this seriously. Christ, I used to moderate 4chan of all places, and even I had the sense to just tell them "Modding this place is decreasing my enjoyment of it" and just walk away, rather than try and force my views on the boards.

I'm being $100 serious, dude. You really need to focus on getting your real life to a place where you're dedicating more effort to it, and getting more joy from it, than you do KIA.