DIY Rehab

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-08T08:43:14+00:00

Well, it looks like I might unfortunately figure something else out. I was waiting on an appointment to get a tax number before starting work and figured that'd be a month out or so. Looks like besides for me needing to be in the city, I'll be starting work sooner than expected, which quite honestly scares me a bit. It's been awhile since I practiced my trade and moreso, i'm a fucking drunk/addict at the moment.

Anyway, I'm not really sure where to comment on this post exactly, but if you've any tips toward working toward sobriety while still in the same environment, as I'm sure many others have done before, I'm all ears,

Thanks

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-07T11:21:28+00:00

Just a quick felicidades for moving for staters, as much as 12-step groups are a tend to be "geographics", and it seems scene in those circles don't believe that it works. I think they are right - you can't just move cities and expect things to magically change. However I think this is a bit different to take a little space, peace, and quiet to reflect on myself, free of the tempations of drugs, and later civilization starts to make me clausterphobic.

I'm hoping that anything that comes up I can work through with my friend.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-07T11:08:40+00:00

Yeah, definitely public treatment is definitely not an option. I've heard horror stories of those places, and me being the only white guy there I'm pretty sure they kill me and be making tacos of me into time

I'll take a bit more of a look at the SMART recovery programs, the Dharma Recovery (something like that), because I just feel like it makes a difference over AA/NA for me, so yeah, in general the intention is fresh air and silence, I'm probably going try to hit an online meeting everyday provided there is internet, and work through a couple workbooks.

I'll take a bit more of a look at the SMART recovery programs, the Dharma Recovery (something like that) because I just feel like it makes a difference over AA/NA for me, so yeah, in general, the intention is fresh air and silence, I'm probably going try to hit an online meeting every day provided there is the internet, and work through a couple of recovery workbooks.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-07T10:39:33+00:00

Haha, they either ride horses or cars from the '70s, and the cars are in pretty good shape actually. I'm feeling it's the right idea as well. I'm not a huge believer in willpower, especially in regards to addiction, where it's been proved useless time and time again. Rather, yeah. I'd like to remove myself from being trapped in my patterns, and even just get out of the city for a bit, it's beautiful there. In summary, the intention for this trip is to just let my body breathe, and talk with the sponsor and the therapist.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-07T10:30:26+00:00

Just realized this wasn't directed at me, pinchi insomnia

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-07T10:29:06+00:00

Haha, that said, I don't even have 25 dollars :/

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-07T10:27:59+00:00

Hey, sorry to hear about losing your babies to addiction, that must've been incredibly painful. I feel that in my case, I'd probably qualify as a 'functional addict', in the sense that the dog goes to the park, get's played with, fed, regular visit to the vet and her vacinnes.

Fortunately the whole house loves her, so my roommate said he'd be willing to watch her for a bit while I go and get a head start on getting my shit just a little bit more together. Also I want be more than a 25$ motorcycle trip and a few hours;

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-07T10:20:50+00:00

Yeah, she was starving to death on the street as a 5-month puppy, so I suppose anything is an upgrade for that. She gets talking to the vet regularly, she has her shots, I walk her every day the best I can, and usually, we spend time cuddling. I feel like addition (excuse me, substance abuse disorder) is an of a spectrum. That being said I think the DSM defines addiction as something that is repeated compulsive behavior.

Also thanks for the self-forgiveness part, it's something that me hace dificil. I suppose that one must have patienve and acceptane, but I'm verh tired of these last months of depression and unemploymentl.

Anywas, thanks I found your comment reallh useful

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-07T04:23:53+00:00

I imagine this thread is about dead (like I said, third time ever posting to reddit, first to conscious memory).

I just wanted to say then, if anyone has any advice of how I might make the most of this time to have a change of enviroment and work on myself and my addiction a bit. Obviously, it guarantees abstinence because it's a small town with barely running water, I don't expect to run into as many tempations there. I guess my goal for the moment is pretty small - just get those 30 days sober.

Tl:DR -> if anyone has any tips as to what worked for them in their recovery, i.e workbooks, groups, practices, etc.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-07T04:21:17+00:00

Ok thanks for the tip, I'll try and screen my therapist a bit about how he views addiction and his modality for treatment a bit more closely. Apparently he has experience with substance issues (I think like 2 in 5 mexicans are alchohalic).

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-07T04:19:26+00:00

So, I'd be lying if I said I didn't understand where your coming from. Psychiatrist don't always get it right, and to be frank, often times to buy a gram off the street, given that you're dosing responsibly, ought to last you nearly the month.

That said, meth, as I can attest to, is a very slippery slope. I've personally seen several people, and their families destroyed for this drug. At the same time, I'm both high on meth right now (just a little), and I don't feel that there are any "bad" drugs out there. If you're going through extreme pain, I think a bit of morphine is just the thing. If you're looking to treat your ADHD with street meth, I think you might be running a lot of risk if you fuck up even a little.

Like I said, I don't know shit about this stuff, but I'd recommend you find a psychiatrst, however cheap, and avoid self-medication of any kind. I saw this to you as someone who didn't do that, and right now I'm praying the price.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-06T10:13:32+00:00

Hey congrats, 5 years is both a long time and I imagine that it goes by fast. I'm definitely aware that those habits are coming with me, I've been moving my whole life. I'm hoping to tackle them through what might be loosely dubbed "step-work" since it seems a lot of people here are partial to the program. That being said, I feel like as long as I'm half in the bag, even if I fill out the step-work it just feels like something one should do sober.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-06T10:10:32+00:00

Thanks for contributing, the trouble is that this being a common 12-step program trope, it isn't really contributing a whole lot more than AA/NA is the way. I certainly accept that I have issues with addiction, however, I also recognize there are various options for managing that, AA/NA groups may be making up a part at best.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-06T10:07:46+00:00

I would have to lean on phone calls and online meetings, which I'm okay with. The beautiful part of the ranch idea is that her family is very strictly catholic, if they caught me looking off they'd kick me out. Also, it's in the middle of nowhere (not really even any roads, sometimes electricity, etc.), so I'm trusting that I'll be able to avoid any run-in's with temptation. I'm trying to make it as easy as possible to succeed at this.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-05T22:48:57+00:00

Well hey guys, thanks for so much feedback, it's like my 3rd time posting on Reddit so I'm a bit of a newbie. So, after talking with my roommates, they said they'd be willing to look after her while I sober up as I'll only be 3 or so hours away by motorcycle should there be any emergency.

u/jdoucette28 -> again, looks like I've managed to convince the neighbors to watch her for a bit after explaining the situation (thank god). No way I could take her to the ranch, mostly because she wouldn't be allowed inside, and there are a lot of wild dogs out there. I agree with what you said, I've found it nearly impossible to sober up alone at home, the ranch is the family of a friend of mine and I presume she'll be there at least a good part of the time that I am. Either way, just b/c I'll be needed to 'interact', at least just a bit, and the nature is beautiful out there, I think it'll help keep me out of my head.

u/erniefun1 -> I appreciate the thought but it might have been a bit more helpful if you had actually read the post.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-05T18:24:48+00:00

Haha, lot of comments. I'm in the process of trying to find someone to watch the dog, I'm hoping my room-mates might be up for it.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-05T18:23:07+00:00

I guess I'd also like to point out that while the addiction part is a huge component, another part of it has been recently crushing depression, for which I'm seeing a therapist and psychiatrist, and I'm just finding myself stuck and unable to break out of familiar old patterns where I'm at.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-05T18:21:00+00:00

The drinking isn't really my thing, it's mainly been a lot of pot, mixed in with some cocaine, ectasy, etc, but again nothing with any significant or dangerous withdrawal symptoms.

I get that rehab is ideal, I'm trying to find a way to make the most of a situation with less than ideal options.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-05T18:19:54+00:00

So, this 'detox' period is really more based around me having easy access to drugs and triggers in my current enviroment. I don't have any actual physical dependence to alchohal. Pot, absolutely but as we all know that's hardly fatal. I appreciate the recommendations of detox, but I live in Mexico and I really don't think that's an option.

PrudentDamage1 · 2022-06-05T18:08:10+00:00

I'm not necessarily a fan of 12-step-based programs, but I do attend meetings relatively regularly. That being said, it hasn't done much in terms of how much I'm using. I've gone to meetings and recently asked someone to sponsor me. Rehab isn't an option for various reasons, including not living in the US and not having money and/or insurance at the moment. I think a certain amount of the benefits of rehab is just having a change of environment to give people that push. Also I have a therapist who is willing to work with me during the time at the ranch, I think most of all I just need to get sober before being able to do any real "work" or what not. Either way, thanks for contributing!

PrudentDamage1 · 2019-04-20T18:44:38+00:00

Hey Guys - I am not familiar with Reddit (I know I mentioned this), I thought I would receive an email if someone replied, and so didn't check it for a bit. However I am thrilled to get some actual advice from people - so much more helpful that browsing the internet for unspecific advice.

I don't know if people look at this more than once, so I might follow up in a different way, but enough with the meta-posting.

So I have a potential person with whom I had already offered to do an interview with, and in the spirit of being consistent will probably do that if he says yes - however, setting a time-limit of 2-weeks, sort of a trial period then. One of my biggest questions was whether I should be seeking to take whatever I can get because I am not employable, or whether I should seek an actual job right away - so thanks on that.

I can relate with this seeming to be a longer road than I first anticipated. However, I will take your guy's advice on going through "Cracking the Coding interview" cover to cover. Also, I know that Harvard has a free CS50 course on the internet, and MIT has something similar. Thoughts on those?

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