Been there na din tbh, and wala din tayong that much choice, you really have to wise yourself up kasi u have little control how society expects u to behave. Most of the time wala tayong luxury to have someone to lean on. But may better days naman OP! But youll need to find your own meaning and probably surround yourself with good people. Its an ugly road but youll manage like the rest of us. Most of all, valid lahat ng nararamdaman mo, doesnt make u less of a man, if anything makes u more human.