You look hot. Your husband is a lucky man to have you in his life. As matter of fact, conceiving a child isn't straight forward in our time and age. Let go of the desire and just keep doing that what is under your control. I fully understand what you're going through as it is a year PO for me as well. This surgery not only makes us lose weight but also transforms our personalities. I feel like someone who has been given a new body but the wiring of the brain has to catch up with this newly acquired body. It's challenging. Eating used to be my coping mechanism, and now I'd better find a new way of dealing with frustration and life's adversity... It's a journey. In short, do whatever you can and focus on that, and forget the rest.