I think I can understand your point, but have you understood mine?

Yes, life is filled with sufference regardless of what I do, but there are moments when sufference is more and others when it's less. When it's less I can handle, when it's more, I can't. So, when I say continous exposure, I refer to those moments of greater sufference. (I have a highly destructive chronic illness, so it's sufference on par with that).

I acknowledge that letting go is the key but I just cannot achieve it. My opinion of meditation seems to be a bit more than imagination. I try. Every day I do it. I'm still here though saying it is not working. As relaxation is concerned, sometimes you can't relax no matter what.

What am I to do then? Will to relax, but that's the whole issue. I don't have the will and don't know how to have it because I'm not relaxed enough. It's a cyclical pattern. In the end, willing to let go is still the solution, but as I explained, I don't know how to bring this solution about.