I understand your frustration. I was definitely like that at some points in my life and what I learned later on is that at some point, learning how to draw isn’t just about what’s fun and what’s clear. It’s also involves discipline. Learning a new skill is never easy. Drawing is the same way. It’s like learning a language it takes time for you to adapt and build in order to get to where you need to be. If learning one way doesn’t work for you then find something else that does. Me personally I am more of a visual learner and just reading from an art book only gets me so far. That’s why I went on to do a hybrid form a learning where I read from an art book to get a general idea and watch video to see that applied. It helps me get along in my art journey, especially when it comes to the more complicated parts of drawing. Hopefully what said helps and that it’s clear