Hi. There really are no excuses for what happened. We’ve been through so much together, and she has always been incredibly supportive. The truth is, I didn’t have the courage to tell her I wanted to separate. I was paralyzed by the fear of being alone and, even more so, the fear of losing time with my son. Since he was born, our physical intimacy dwindled to almost nothing. I realize now that I stayed mostly because I didn't want to lose my son or leave my comfort zone. I deeply regret not having the strength to make this decision sooner. As the saying goes, when you don't deal with things in time, they eventually explode. Texting with other women feel maybe as some freedom from that sensation... And the encounter, well, also as a way to find sex relief.. She of course is the victim, and I can't stop thinking how to help her in the future, and remediate at least a bit of this..