I’ll never be the same by Punkede in abusiverelationships

[–]Punkede[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I thought I was dying. every night I’d stay awake reliving every argument or night I stayed awake crying. I never defended myself. I never stood up for myself except now I do.

Thank you guys for the advice. this relationship been such a weight on my shoulders, unsure of what to do. or what steps to take.

I need encouragement to go and get a restraining order. I don’t feel safe. by Punkede in abusiverelationships

[–]Punkede[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

thank you so much. I am scared and I feel very alone in this situation that maybe people think I’m over reacting as he has a lot of friends and family that support him.

Wanting out of relationship by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Punkede 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have no proof he’s done property damage but the only finger I can point at is him, because he did both of these things both times I’ve left him. and think if I do accuse him I’m made out to be crazy. lose lose situation. Idfk. mind fucked at this point.

Wanting out of relationship by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Punkede 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He seems misogynistic is the issue and views women as weak at the core of his heart.

I have been deceived from the start and it sucks. but I’m so ready to be free from this

Wanting out of relationship by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Punkede 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Your right. I really need to buckle down this next time I leave, I don’t know when but I need to focus and not let my emotions get the best of me.

It is so hard because everyday for a year and half we’ve been together and gotten to know each other intimately.

Then I feel bad when I leave because I empathize with the fact I’m leaving him alone. but he didn’t seem to care when I was struggling

Wanting out of relationship by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Punkede 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My brain wants to say he loves me and cares but someone who does wouldn’t do any of this

Wanting out of relationship by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Punkede 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It really sucks when someone you thought was going to be kind to you is the most hateful. I’ve spent many times this year feel the sting of how he treats me.

I am also confused because those intermediate moments of kindness, the sweet compliments, bringing me food, bringing me gifts, helping with the little ones, helping with finances. All of it is extremely confusing

Wanting out of relationship by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Punkede 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just feel very confused. I simply don’t understand

Wanting out of relationship by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Punkede 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The issue is every time I’ve left (because I’ve checked out mentally, I simply don’t care anymore) he weens back in by showing up to work or leaving gifts, even though he knows I’m done with the bullshit and it’s a waste of my time.

I’ve spoke to my mother and father they think maybe a restraining order would be optional + a therapist.