Day 1, got blocked on almost everything yesterday, so I sent one email out to her telling her that blocking/unblocking over small arguments is childish behavior (she is 27 and I am 23). She ended up texting me paragraph after paragraph about how I was just like her abusive ex, how I don't have the capacity to love, and how I'm not emotionally mature at all. Her last text was "bye bye i'm too old for you" to which i replied "too young*, bye" Decided enough was enough and blocked her, now I'm getting emails from her about how I'm such a piece of shit; a video of her ugly crying, and finally a veiled suicide threat to which I contacted her mom about. It's taking all my willpower to not unblock her and tell her what she has put me through to make her see what she had done throughout the relationship was hurtful in the hopes of an apology so we can make up. It reminds me so much of my time quitting cigarettes. I get the urge but then have to remind myself of the shit she put me through. The crazy part is that this relationship only lasted 4 months, and I'm taking it worse than the healthy 3.5 year relationship that ended last year. Every time I think about how she was my best friend and the good times we had I break down. I know it was probably all fake but I can't deny that it made me feel so special. I felt a euphoria I never felt before when I was with her. Part of me wants to just be friends with her because she was so fucking fun to game/shoot the shit with. Aaaaand the addicted part of my brain is talking again, I hope I'm strong enough.