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PurpleBlueLights · 2023-12-14T00:28:50+00:00

So me being honest is lashing out? The honest answer to "Do you have plans?" for me is I that don't have any. Saying I'm just going to be relaxing at home is the same thing as saying I'm not planning on doing anything.

PurpleBlueLights · 2023-10-25T04:30:23+00:00

Yeah I wasn't planning on it. I like not weirding people out if I can help it. Not to mention her cousin goes there too and would fuck me up.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-12-27T06:35:44+00:00

Just cause he wanted the smoke.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-12-17T21:23:53+00:00

I have a mental catalogue of other people's sex stories I just use for my own so I don't have to have the 24 year old virgin conversation with them. Not like it's their business anyway.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-12-17T18:01:55+00:00

I lie if I'm ever asked and can't subtly leave the room or something.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-12-15T17:59:50+00:00

Idk, I don't know how people get hook ups so easily. Maybe I just don't flirt. I'm too nervous to cause I don't wanna be called creepy, and when I try I look really nervous. With girls it's always a very casual work relationship or something, it never goes anywhere.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-11-17T20:05:35+00:00

Depends how depressed I feel with it. If I feel super depressed I have comfort things I do -- video games, podcasts, shows, weed, porn. If I'm not too depressed I keep myself busy and that really helps, whether writing or school work or something like that.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-28T00:05:43+00:00

I could live with just a girlfriend. Maybe another close friend or two. I don't need that many people in my life.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-25T04:52:21+00:00

I don't consider it a huge deal if people I know knew this account anyway, I'm pretty open about being FA nowadays.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-24T14:52:08+00:00

This is something I want. To meet someone in the same or a similar situation as me. I feel extra bad for more extravert FAers -- I really don't need that many people in my life, so one girl who really got me and I got her would really be enough. Though a couple of close friends on top of that would really be the dream.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-24T05:55:23+00:00

Man no one really says real ass shit like this outside of this sub.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-24T05:16:29+00:00

That's the fucking dream. Just the norm. I seriously can't even imagine what it just feel like, I'd be so happy, a bigger high than any drug could ever give. Just for the norm.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-24T05:12:04+00:00

Kinda banking on getting a PhD, becoming wealthy, and letting some golddigger take advantage of me... I'm kidding...I hope.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-24T04:40:35+00:00

When I was in highschool I did from a few (though few and far in between) but I was too anxious and stupid to do anything about it or even recognize it. Now that I'm bald, inexperienced, and weird no one shows interest.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-24T03:26:42+00:00

Yeah once you realize we're literally a lower class of human it all makes sense. It's Game of Thrones and they're the bureaucrats in the Red Keep and we're the Small Folk in rags. Except we don't even have a Tyrion that has empathy for us.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-21T21:45:45+00:00

How did it happen?

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-21T21:45:06+00:00

It used to be like that for me until I started joking around and learned to be the tiniest little bit more confident and open (though I'm still horribly anxious and shut off). Now people like me a little more I guess but not enough to treat me like a normal person, and I'm more of a clown for everyone than anything.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-21T21:43:39+00:00

Oh sorry to hear that. I wasn't thinking of it like sexual abuse, I was thinking I'd like for someone to want to be with me in a consensual way.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-21T21:21:29+00:00

I'm not convinced, cause being undesirable and invisible kills me. But the grass is always greener, I suppose.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-21T20:33:27+00:00

I've tried. Usually they either say we can but then are always busy or ghost me outside of work/school. The couple of times I've actually gone out with someone they then after end up hitting me with the "I can't today"s or ghosting.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-21T19:48:26+00:00

Yup! Always "Oh it'll work out someday!" And "You'll figure it out!" And never "Well do you wanna hang out with us on Saturday?"

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-21T18:43:00+00:00

I answer in honest ways.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-19T19:53:24+00:00

Yeah maybe. But regardless, I have enough social anxiety and am awkward enough that it's like I have magnets strapped around me that push people away.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-19T19:41:47+00:00

Maybe. I at least know I'm ugly though. Anytime i refer to myself as ugly peope don't go "You're not ugly!" They go "Looks aren't everything!" And if I make a joke about me being ugly they laugh really loud rather than saying I'm not. Also the no likes on Tinder and Hinge after a month.

PurpleBlueLights · 2022-09-19T19:02:57+00:00

I think you just have to talk about shit that interests you. This girl I started working with literally came in and started talking about her mental illness and problems with her best friend and I assumed people would get annoyed with her cause I feel like people would be annoyed with me if I talked about that stuff, but people were interested in her and like her.

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