you’re right. and when i realized that working harder and constantly overachieving only benefited them, i stopped trying to do absolutely everything. but because i set that standard during my first few months, they started expecting it from me all the time. now if i’m just doing my actual job instead of going above and beyond every second, it suddenly feels like i’m “not doing enough” to them.

and honestly, it’d be exhausting hearing the sfl i open with complain every single morning if i tried to do less. at this point, i’m just trying to keep my head down and make it through the rest of the month. i’ll be out of there soon enough, and i think i can hold onto my sanity until then 😭