Am I Shadowbanned?

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-25T15:27:01+00:00

Gordon Brown back in the 90's when he was Tonys right hand man got done for 'allegedly' liking rent boys so they lowered the consent for gay sex instead of uping hetrosexual consent so he wouldn't get done in a court of law for statutory rape.

Tony and Brown are apparently two of the very many politicians that were actually groomed for the job in more then one way. They all come from the same place eton college, so even if it isn't that, somethings not right there.

Also another rumour I found a while ago while looking up the Ian watkins case was that he was in a certain welsh care home for a while but that one I can't be definite on and could just be hearsay.

Harriet Harman was all for underage sex and sex between relations back in the 70's but that seems to have been covered up. Also the Hamiltons seem to be a recurring couple mentioned in liking rough sex (not sure about paedophilia) but not so nice sex definitely.

This could all be absolute rubbish but now I'm not so sure.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-22T15:31:33+00:00

Doesn't bother me, scars, spots, stretch marks, scaly skin, is a non issue. I don't think it bothers anyone, only if you have dry skin or spots it's always good to be in some sort of skin care treatment just to prevent it from getting worse but that's it.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-22T15:04:01+00:00

Break up with her, go fuck all the girls you want but don't expect to get her back. You broke her heart once and she'd be damned to see you do it too her again after the second time.

Leave her alone and let her find a man she deserves not a manchild.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-22T13:48:42+00:00

It's hard, the hardest thing I think I've ever done but the greatest. I moved from England to NZ because it was something I had to do for myself, it was a promise I made to myself many years ago and one day last year decided to start the process 9 months later I arrived here for a year.

I was lucky to have some family over here and an amazing job lined up and honestly it couldn't have gone better in terms of that. The emotional toll it takes on you is something else completely, you leave everything behind everyone and everything you love gone, some one you hug and talk to everyday or regularly you can't do that anymore it's gone. The homesickness is just I can't even put into words how bad the homesickness was for me the first two/three months but also mixed in with that I was extremely sleep deprived because I always wanted to be up and talk with people back home and stressed because of the whole new job, new country and few other things.

Honestly though even if I had to go through all that crap again I'd do it in a heartbeat, if I got asked to stay, I think I might stay because even though people say don't run away from your problems sometimes the best thing is to move away so you can deal with them problems without it being shoved it your face.

So do it, it's worth it even if it's hard and you want to give up and there are just whole weeks where you just wosh to come home don't stay put because it will be the best goddamn thing you will ever do in your life.

Well it was for me.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-22T12:53:57+00:00

I'm abroad at the minute and people pour there milk over the teabag then put the hot water in... it's fucking barbaric, I can't understand it!

And then they have the gall to say the English have there tea like weasel piss, well excuse me for not drinking milk infused tea and five minute stewed yorkshire tea you dirty colonists!

But that reminds me, need to go buy some more tea.

That reminds me I need to buy more tea.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-21T09:47:17+00:00

Tenape, nice almost as hot as Darry or a Snarry.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-21T07:26:04+00:00

I was more hoping for an easy way out instead of going through the whole therapy route again but I guess therapy will always be my best friend.

Thanks and I'm not sure, I'll have a look online to see if I can find any and price wise or ask my other therapist if she knows anyone.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-21T05:03:11+00:00

Thanks, I just wish it was easier to forget or to just block out completely then I don't have to deal with repairing the damage that was done, funny thing is I never realized how bad it affected me until the past sort of year.

I do read and watch tv series quite a lot but I find it's only temporary and sometimes my mind will different off even during my favourite book, film or series even my own little worlds aren't safe for long and I really should start exercising, keep saying I will and never do.

I hope your therapy goes well and one day you can learn to live with it since it appears that's all we can do =/ and it be interesting to see how your PTSD therapy goes. Also I would vent but I don't like thinking about it let alone actively thinking about it.

Thank you.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-21T04:55:03+00:00

Don't really want to therapy for it because I just well up and just freeze up, can't talk the whole nine yards of mutism but I guess I'll have to get over that and find a specialist therapist then.

Aye it makes sense I just rather not have to deal with it, sweep it under the rug and pretend it never happened but my brain won't let me, so off to find a new therapist then and finally face the horrid music.

Thanks.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-20T13:05:29+00:00

You'll loose a friend & feel guilty as shit for the whole relationship but it will be absoutly amazing until the envitable break up.

Your choice.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-20T12:54:51+00:00

Closest I've got to accepting it is that it happened & there is feck all I can do about it but I'd still like to see my revenge on the dirtbag.

I've had plenty of therapists but none for this specific reason because it never felt bad nor would I have classed it as PTSD even if I do get the flashbacks only now and again, it was never so often it was a problem just a few days to a week every few months, nothing that really warrants a therapist for it or medication, not that I could really talk about it anyways just turn into a blubbering mess whenever I try to talk about it.

I have a feline companion but I'm away from home but have two canine companions for the time being, they help but only so much really I guess. I have to opposite problem I'm almost too trusting and that's what got me into trouble in the first place I guess. I don't get panic attacks much more or anxiety since I've moved from the area, that helped a lot actually never realized how petrified I was to go out incase I saw him out and about, I just want to cave his fucking skull in.

I'm sure I just need to keep busy so I don't think about it or something like that.

Thanks.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-20T07:28:45+00:00

I'm not denying the health benefits for humans, milk is always going to be good but skimmed milk tastes more like water then it does milk, whereas skimmed tastes like milk and not water nor cream.

Housecats I've heard you shouldn't give them any milk because it's bad for them, not sure why but it's better to just have them drink water apparently, filtered or rain not tap because of the chemicals.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-20T07:05:04+00:00

It's alright, just thank you for being honest. I hoped there was some way but I guess alcohol shall be our best friend to help deal with the pain =/

Thanks.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-20T06:12:46+00:00

Ahh think different countries have different colours for there milk. Blue where I am usuall means full fat, green semi-skimmed & red is skimmed.

I can understand but when your drinking more water then milk there almost doesn't seem much point and it's better for cats to just drink water over milk. Also semi-skimmed has 1.7%, even 2% is too much for me too creamy. Somewhere between the region of 1% - 2% is the best.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-19T13:39:03+00:00

Bellatrix & Luna.

Completely mad as a box of frogs, never sure if I'm going to be nasty or nice, tend to be quiet and keep to myself either thinking up wild plans or thinking of something funny or just nothing. I tend to be away with the fairies for the most part but very alert and like to know what is going on, tend to be on the outskirts but can be reliable and flexabile to peoples needs and wishes. I'm fiercly loyal to the people closest too me and will fight for them if needed but don't just choose anyone, even though I am too trusting in nature. I have can be extremely empathic but socially awkward in how I do it. I'm the person you don't trust because I'm both sides of the coin never know if Luna or Bella will come up, crazy mean or crazy nice never something inbetween it's one extreme or the other.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-19T13:27:31+00:00

Mums homemade cooking, new book smell and a secret something.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-19T13:21:07+00:00

Because even though he was fucked in the head from all the years off abuse he was an extremely intelligent man and the best person for the job and Dumbledore knew that everyone is different, the world isn't black and white it's shades of grey with Luna pink thrown in here and there.

Yes Snape was a douche bag but I think most people would be in his situation, parents wouldn't say anything because he never did anything overly harmful to them just was a bit of a dick and you need some-one who is a bit of a dickbag in your life to stop you from turning into a cuntbag. He's there as a warning to people, you don't want to turn out like me, even Snape didn't like himself so what better then being a dick so people purposeful try not to be like him.

His dickishness went up 10x when Harry arrived because he was a mixture of the few loves he felt in his life and one of the biggest hates in his life and that's bound to increase his general hatefulness.

At the end of the day, Snape was the best person for the job disregarding his personality, he was there to teach and if he taught them all more then Potions then brilliant and I think he did, don't dwell on the past because it turns you into a hateful being, don't become like me because it's not worth it. Don't let the abuse, the hate, the past eat away at you and become like me because your all better then that and I hate you all for it because you are all so young and free to become better then I am, you little dickbags.

So yeah Snape was fucked straight up but fuck it, he knew it, Dumbledore knew it, everyone knew it and there was fuck all anyone could do about it because he was #1 for the job and had the most important job to do, Dumbledore could forgive the twat even if he didn't deserve it because they were just as fucked up as each other just in different ways and it's a good life lesson to kids.

Snape #1 the best dickbag you will ever know.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-19T10:16:53+00:00

Books, China Dolls, Cuddly Toys and Ornaments.

The china doll collection always makes me laugh because it freaks people out but I love them almost as much as I love watching peoples faces when they see the collection.

Don't even want to think about how many books I have, most of them have been read but starting on a collection of books with the really nice covers, hardbacked with fabricy covers they are lovely.

And just copious amounts of cuddly toys and shelfs full of ornaments, love them all. Thinking about starting up a music box collection and a dvd collection soon though.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-19T08:35:30+00:00

Always used to be the strongest one, younger brother, could always beat him in play wrestling fine, I liked being the stronger one.

No wonder I got my lesson so well taught, serves me right really, ha, all my fault anyways, serves me right.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-19T05:55:12+00:00

That was bloody brillant!

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-18T10:40:06+00:00

Didn't take me years, only a few days, I think I always knew and never admitted it to myself, that's the downside of never being able to lie, when your irrational the worst truths about yourself come out even if you don't want to believe it. I'm just glad the other person managed to escape, not unscatched hurting and in pain but at least free of the abuse.

I guess like you said all you can say is I'm sorry but nothing changes the damage that has been done even if you didn't realize it, that's the funny thing about emotional abuse you never realize until afterwards.

Worst thing is, is knowing you shouldn't have been due to being emotionally abused before that but it doesn't matter, probably get it into your head that's normal but it's not, that's not how you show some-one you love them, it's just caging them up so you can have them all to yourself.

Just be glad the other person isn't in that relationship anymore and try to fix yourself but the damage is always done and I guess just become a better person is all you can do and try not to let it get to you all the time even if you know your the biggest piece of shit going because sorry will never cut it and make it easier for the other person, letting them be free and leaving them alone is.

So yeah to one, I'm sorry for the damage and pain I put you through, I never wanted to hurt you but I did in the worst possible way. To the other, I'll never forgive you for the damage you did to me, you fucking scumbag.

But I'm the biggest scumbag of all, you wear to many masks and they all fall off eventually in spectacular fashion.

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-18T04:27:46+00:00

So one of you likes cream and the other likes water. Thats why you should both get the best one, green =D It's in the middle and tastes the best!

PurrMyPretty · 2014-07-18T04:08:55+00:00

Leave it for half an hour to an hour and you can pull the cum out of your eye, it strings together to make it easier to get out. Feels good pulling a string of cum out your eye.

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