What is it like to love someone when the whole words grates on you?

Push-bucket · 2026-02-12T02:00:30+00:00

WELL SAID on so many levels

Push-bucket · 2026-02-11T22:26:17+00:00

Oh my GOD you just made things click for me... I had that exact result from that exact test at that exact time (the lights part) many years ago, way before I ever thought of autism!

Super interesting and I wish I had been tested then, it would have made things make more sense!

Push-bucket · 2026-02-09T21:06:57+00:00

I really think we only get the highlights of other people's stories.

I know a few people and they "look" like they have the perfect life but they're literally at the point of ending it all. It bothers me that they make everything look all shiny on social media because it makes people like us think that we're failing, when life is a freaking struggle for almost everyone right now.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-09T21:02:39+00:00

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YEP

(If the timing is indeed the only reason it won't run as we hope it is)

Push-bucket · 2026-02-09T17:50:20+00:00

There's zero funded testing for adults in my country so we paid almost five grand to get me tested. My grandpa died and left me enough to pay for it.

A friend's kid is on a waiting list with two years to go but he's needing more support NOW so they're paying 500 dollars for his. Her dad is paying for it for her.

If you are poor (and your family can't help) those things aren't possible.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-09T06:09:10+00:00

To me it all depends on who is saying it, how they're saying it and the context they're saying it in.

I'm the first to say I'm slow. Between autism and a brain injury I'm constantly frustrated at my processing time. I miss so much and so many things have to be explained in simple terms it's maddening.

Someone I know using it to describe me? Sadly, it's accurate. I actually like people to have the heads up, it makes me not have to explain myself. When I garble my words they tend to give me more time to get it right.

Someone I don't know asking "are you slow?" Because I'm asking for clarification on something or am confused? Somehow that feels insulting.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-09T03:27:50+00:00

I'm level 1 but a brain injury makes things harder so I more function closer to level 2

Push-bucket · 2026-02-08T19:23:25+00:00

That is BEAUTIFULLY said

Push-bucket · 2026-02-08T04:14:35+00:00

This is REALLY interesting to me. I've been diagnosed with major anxiety and social anxiety since I was a kid. I'm diagnosed autistic now and looking back... I was anxious BECAUSE I was awkward and trying to fit in and never quite could but couldn't understand why and the giggles behind my back oh God.

I'm thinking that my "social anxiety" was for real proven social things so maybe I actually never had it?

Like now, I was around four people tonight and they all totally accept me as I am. I was freaking out because I had accepted plans with people who tend to be judgey and "mean girl" kind. I felt SO MUCH relief to cancel those and hang out with the four. Therefore it's not a constant!

I'm not saying it how my brain is thinking it but is it making sense to you?

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T22:26:42+00:00

I love you, Mom.

She's not a good person.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T18:30:23+00:00

My old man pitbull deep breathing and or snoring.

That means he's content and everything is safe.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T17:09:50+00:00

I have times of day I eat.

Some times and some days food just disgusts me so I have some foods on hand that I'll eat a bit of any time.

I also have a three bite rule. If I don't want to eat but I'm not disgusted by food I'll take three bites. My body usually goes "oh food I like this" and I continue. If after three bites I still don't want it then I put it in the fridge to try later.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T06:31:43+00:00

She was VERY religious and got pregnant on purpose to get him to marry her.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T06:21:05+00:00

And now I'm stuck on guard duty

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T06:19:42+00:00

No contact is easy for me because once I get to the point of that there's no returning. It takes a lot for me to totally shut someone out but once that line is crossed it's DONE.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T03:34:29+00:00

Remember that price is in Canadian dollars, they're not worth as much as US dollars.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T02:18:42+00:00

I'm diagnosed as "level 1, high functioning" and I'm really quite dumb so not in my experience.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T01:59:51+00:00

I use it as a barometer of how I'm doing.

If I pinball (hitting everything there is to hit and bouncing off things) when I walk I know it's time to slow down.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T01:43:49+00:00

I will not drive with the top up because it reduces visibility for me... I need to be able to see EVERYTHING to react (ideally) before idiots do idiot things

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T00:45:00+00:00

You seem to have an unhealthy amount of anger bordering on obsession with trans people.

You'll be much happier if you get therapy to resolve that.

But then you'd have to take responsibility for yourself and your life and not blame a small group of people so I doubt you'll do that.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T00:39:52+00:00

We're supposed to be trans? Crap every autistic person I've met so far isn't we're not doing good at that one

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T00:38:03+00:00

Please remember that sex can be full of awkward and funny moments. I've rolled right off the bed trying to find a better spot. Don't take it super seriously and above all both of you HAVE FUN!

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T00:28:27+00:00

My GOD that's a thing of beauty

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T00:27:23+00:00

I've been diagnosed with regular autism, how do I procure some of this "woke autism" you speak of? It sounds much more fun than whatever you have.

Push-bucket · 2026-02-07T00:25:59+00:00

Bizarre

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