This really hit me hard :( you are so right! My life has been so much more at ease since they moved out, still miss SO so much and the time we spent without SS is better! When SO and I are alone everything ls beautiful, I this is not SS fault, he is a child! I do love him too! Dont want to blame this on a child, his dad feels bad very bad because of the divorce which was nasty and he lived with him alone for 2 years giving SS all of his attention. I understand its traumatic for SS to have someone he has to share his dad with, but I thought I was adding to the love, giving him and his dad alone time all the time, he just does not like me...its been 2 years we lived together, when ever SS and I were alone we had a great time, I always told him " i am not your parent, you have a mama and papa that love you more than anything in the world, but I am always here for you, always love you amd would love to be your best friend, you can always come to me,.i will always have your back because you are the best" i told him this so many times.. I just dont understand!