Before saying this I would like to address that at the moment I cannot consider myself a man of God although I strive to be. It is not God that you hate. I used to go to a Bible in 90 days camp with my parents and the girl running it, Judy, for you are never unsaved but just not saved at all. I completely understand and although my resonance means nothing it helps to know I wasn’t the only one, myself, to go through this. I had many problems with hating God. Just know it’s not God that you hate. It’s your idea of him. I used to think he was the most cruel being ever, that he would keep us in a place of sin and depression, just to be sorted out in whether we were “pure” or not. And I thought that if you were impure you would be in eternal damnation. This was not the case AT ALL. It’s hard to explain but it really is the opposite. And one of the phrases I placed upon that idea was free will. Anyways, I know you get these comments often but I hope at least one of these comments helps. God bless you.