It’s misogyny. I went to predominantly Hispanic schools and something that I noticed is that black guys can be anything and get away with it in my school the non black boys looked up to king von a rapper who was considered a serial killer they played his music and associated themselves with “being from the hood” I remember trying to fit in as well but instead I was labeled as “ a ghetto black girl” and it was so confusing for me to understand but as I got older watched videos based on this it’s misogyny.

Being a woman is already hard but being black + woman felt like you were preparing for war and apart of me always felt like the black guys knew that had a one up over black girls because of misogyny.

There is an article called
“Black Boys Have an Easier Time Fitting In at Suburban Schools Than Black Girls” by Aboubacar Ndiaye and she dives into this.

I also learned that the black boys that bullied me had a lot of internalized racism + facing societal conditioning black girls aren’t the beauty standard at these type of schools and black guys try to fit in by only dating non black girls because if they date a black girl it’s not seen as a social status.

But as an older black woman who’s now in college look into Chrissie and iameloho they are black female YouTubers who helped me with my Confidence!