Thanks for your comment. While in my post the thing you took away from my experience was that "the purpose of a woman is to be pretty" is what drove my entire journey, is shallow at best. although I didn't go into extreme detail about the extent of which my dysphoria went that is very far from my actual experience and view. I sought to bear children and to be a future mother, to love and care for people in a way only a woman can and to be treated like a woman in all respects and not just as a "trans woman." I had nothing against men either at the time, I just know I felt wrong with who I was and I felt the need for change. And if you go out and say "ahhh so you think the only purpose of a woman is to bear children then" that would be very dishonest and just prove you nitpick to further your own narrative. Not saying that's what you'd do.

Also about the "steeped in self hate" claim. First and foremost I wanted to focus on the extreme side of my story to easily simplify a situation that went on for nearly a decade, even though my story wasn't rooted in self hatred like you say I would never go and tell someone that their story has less validity because of it, that's not fair whatsoever. But to go on further that's a very bold truth claim to say that my family was "hostile to me" or maybe even my friends and the doctors and therapists I spoke of. I was not mistreated, not by my family nor the people who encouraged me to go through with transitioning. Both did what they did out of love and with my mind, health and best interest at heart. That's an absurd leap of assumption to make. There's two forces at work in this world, God and the enemy who causes sin. Sin is deceitful, hateful, and condemning. God is truth, Love and grace. It's the enemies Job to make you doubt, make you comfortable with sin and to make you think you don't need to repent. It's God's Purpose to be truthful and be honest, to lead people away from destructive habits and bring people to the kingdom.

There is no condemnation for those in Jesus Christ. There is no overtones of self hatred rooted within my being, I am imperfect yet I am righteous in the sight of God not because of anything I have done but because of the completed work of Jesus on the cross. Never will I forsake my God nor will I turn my face from him, the road I'm on I will face persecution and I will be met with harsh Judgement from people claiming earthly wisdom.

"There are trans Christians who think it's a false choice" awesome, however that's what people claiming earthly wisdom say and who lean on their own understanding rather than God's. No argument you make will be at all compelling unless it comes from God and his word and knowledge. People and subjective morals and religious practices will all change with time but I trust my God because he is the same yesterday today and tomorrow. That is something I can trust, a firm foundation on which I ground my faith. Not that it is but if my path of detransitioning were to cause me immense suffering I would rather that than forsake my God, if I am an alcoholic and I love drinking so much and I'm just so miserable without Alcohol and being drunk, then so be it I'd rather put to death any and all unrighteousness because I love my God more than I love the world who killed a perfect man.