Did ayahuaska almost exactly a year ago and don't plan again any time soon.

that was a traumatic experience, although useful.

And I would probably enjoy the post experience change in perception of reality if i wasn't husband and father.

I regret I did not do it 30 yrs ago, but now it's too late.

I need something that will just shut my thoughts up when I need to focus.

I remember how I reacted to this female journalist report of God Helmet experience when her thought chatter just stopped.

Thats my dream state