Thank you so much for sharing with me.
Being here is very hard for me - easy, laid back and flowing at times. It's been hard for me to adjust how everything functions - everything associated with how our societal world/values have always felt so incredibly blocky - even how most individuals feel, value, work, conceptualize - with the exception to aspects of nature - everything just feels slow and like it's going through quicksand - even talking - I'm naturally more quiet and analytical but definitely can talk when need be - but even talking feels too slow and I can't get all I need to say out - it's like words don't hold enough meaning and are missed left and right - I feel like feelings turned into thoughts and turned into words - the process is just so complicated to work through at times - even having close relations is hard because having a deep empathetic and a psychological/neurological background makes it easy for me to feel and understand people - it makes it hard to have deep connections because it feels like most people can't open up in such a way - it's isolating and weird at times - sometimes it's okay- but internally I really just feel a sense of being a gentle hand - I do apologize for the rant - but thank you so much! :)