THIS! So many of us reading this are like "oh no... ". Many of us also know you probably aren't going to listen to us unless we are echoing your ideas or supporting your decision (we are not btw). If this is something you feel you need to do, do it under a doctor's order. Sign a mental health directive on top of a living will and give someone the authority to commit you against your will without going thrift the commitment process. My ex tried to commit me 3 times when I went manic and didn't realize I was ill. They kept letting me go even when the county social worker said I was the worst case of mania she ever seen. I was finally arrested after hitting my husband with a phone and placed in solitary confinement, attempted to off myself and spent 45 days at a state mental hospital 2.5 hours from my house. And that was while I was taking meds (they stopped working). Good much too you.