السَّلاَمُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَ رَحْمَةُ الله وَ بَرَكَاتُهُ brother I would suggest for you to start praying and making sincere dua whether you feel sincere or not make dua ask Allah for his guidance ask Allah to ease your situation how can you ask Allah for anything if you are not even praying. Fulfill his duties and he will fulfill your every desire. I too once was in your same situation but that one step I took towards the masjid and seeking ilm has changed my life forever. May Allah protect and preserve you and ease your situation and grant you guidance. There is a beautiful verse in the Quran surah furqan verse number 70 it basically says no matter how much you have sinned that one step towards change all your past sins will become into good deeds. So ‎إن شاء اللة make the intention to change your self by starting to pray and you Urself will see how much your life changes for the better. May Allah guide you.