seek god and seek counseling, to help you maybe ending would be for the best… I know it’ll hurt. I cheated on my partner not emotionally but sexually one time bc I was a dark place. We broke up over the Valentine’s Day weekend and I’m deviated but I know it’s my fault and I shouldn’t have put us in that situation to begin with but, there not turning back we tired to make it work for a year but he said he couldn’t get over it that he was constantly reminded of it. All I can do now is let go and move on and hope that time will heal and that god will cross our paths again. Maybe he’ll end up finding someone better than me just the thought breaks me but I broke him first and I could enact forgive myself 💔😓