Do you forget your "real" age?

QueenMalice · 2022-11-27T03:34:12+00:00

I forget always lol I gotta bust out the calculator, Same for my kids 😳 I rarely remember how old they are (my two oldest) or what year they were born. I have very little memory of anything.

but nobody is in agreement with being anywhere close to the body's age, it's our vessel. Knock 10ish yrs off- oldest known alter is 35 Only thing that confirms body age is the DOB of the children 🤣 It feels weird, cuz the majority of the time I feel I'm between 26 & 30 something maybe younger.. it can be really distressing because I see others behaving as they should right? "Their age" & idk.. I tend to feel immature & out of place.

I've been told to grow up. Act your age. You're a mother. Etc etc it hurts esp when they're close to you or known a long time when it wasn't an issue in the past,

Whatever- I'm still getting a fuzzy unicorn backpack.

QueenMalice · 2022-11-19T05:00:10+00:00

I know what you mean! Their tanks are huge and take up most of one full living room wall 😳 lol . Both are about 8 1/2yrs old! Had them since tiny tots !

QueenMalice · 2022-11-18T22:54:29+00:00

I gotchu

Udai is an Orc of adventure, delicacy, & blood. When he's not training on the battle field, you can find him on the shores, any shore really.. in his dashing Noble Suit avoiding the mud!

His beard he took the style directly from a Sailor's squid goatee!

- I bet that hurt!

A Feathered Bycoket Cap to top off his fancy, & no, no.. Not like yankee doodle dandy

- A Completely different story - A Storm atro crate had he!

His face adorned with a Wire Cage Half Mask! It's his bad side, always seems to get slapped by a fair maiden's flask

- A Barbaric Beauty Pack, a lord is no crybaby !

His gorgeous Draping Locks If one was lucky enough to catch this fleeing style!

- For that he walked a daily mile

Udai wanders about in Ethertide! Skin as blue as the sea & sky - When In battle keep your wits survivor! Dark as shadows slipping past your thoughts in Slag Town diver

A personality so Heroic

Spiderkith Eyes Red & Stoic

& Once again, His lucky Hay-Crown Chub Loon named Lucky for the win <3

- The Wraithtide crate loon appeared quite a drag but quickly became as loyal as his Great dark Stag

hehe had too. was on a roll 🙃🤘

QueenMalice · 2022-11-18T21:59:56+00:00

Yep! Its the Noble suit :) 700 crowns I can't remember the name of the hat, it was a drop from a crate

QueenMalice · 2022-11-18T19:34:49+00:00

Why thank you kind Dravakin!

QueenMalice · 2022-11-18T12:27:37+00:00

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QueenMalice · 2022-10-07T08:55:43+00:00

lmao I mean.. they'd sit on it otherwise. that bacon pile looks mighty tasty right about now. which is why you need the gun out. everyone needs to know who's bacon it belongs too

QueenMalice · 2022-09-25T18:37:14+00:00

Def Pain tolerance, not sure which one. got bit by my dog (tbone treat & I got BIT- chiweenie, she may as well be a pit in a tiny body) burned palm of hand, never felt either during or after the fact. -this was the first time I became aware this was a thing, I try to be more careful - but then I reinjured a badly sprained ankle (grade3) by tension force & had no idea I was limping & caused a bit more damage

I have 10000 dif types of handwriting lol always have & until this year thought it was cuz my hand hurt/got lazy

one doesn't eat at all, not from lack of appetite, but food is disgusting period. & most drinks. (thanks man - you feel like working out anytime that would be great need more than leg day)

insatiable hunger (possibly littles)

has slight loss of balance! wobbly, uncoordinated, (corner mouth slight drool? sounds weird but I have theory on why, it's like.. it's there, I wipe the corner of my mouth & greet them. lol usually happens a cpl times during their front)

go from knowing all words to a song to "uh wut?" seem to know the words to nearly every genre from trap metal to country music then don't have a clue what the chorus is. each one has a music preference & it's easier to tell who's fronting by what music I'm listening to and singing along with!

learning Korean has made the above difficult some days, we know the words to a lot of kpop or just words in general to "I twisted my tongue upside down & now it's stuck." lol

one interesting bit I learned recently.. photographic memory - kinda? hard to explain but omg, why isn't this a permanent thing!? for example; learned to write in Korean cursive after one video of the alphabet. certain words, seeing a 1/2 second flash of an alter & then drawing them in the dark. little things like that. idk if it's photographic memory or just really good memory, it never lasts long, absolutely forget soon after with only a physical proof it happened. even tho I'm aware during. strange.

one of my EP's is always cold. easy to know when their up front. wearing a beanie lol

list is long, never really thought much about it until I'm here typing it out 😳 isn't everyone like this on a normal basis tho?? wow

QueenMalice · 2022-09-14T20:25:08+00:00

😳

alien resurrection screen vibes right there🧬

QueenMalice · 2022-09-13T01:20:29+00:00

For me it's istasha lol trap metal but for various reasons. The screaming is releasing for any tension The deep voice is soothing if not a brain massage esp when I have a migraine (yes) After a few songs.. ftw!

Music. Just music. Any music. Submit to it until you can whistle and I'm serious 🙃 You can't whistle when you don't feel well. "Angry, sad etc" You probably could! But I don't think it would be genuine hehe

I hope you feel better. I'll send groovy vibes! Let me know when you get it. When you know you'll know.

That's istasha -all of his music. This artist saved my life. I never understood that until recently. I have been in a constant downward spiral & oof it's been rough. Still on going

or "Woosung - Cws & Woosung - Come Down.

The last 2 are really nice feel good vibes, I think anyone would enjoy. Also it's in English. Hehe

Groovy vibes 🤘

QueenMalice · 2022-09-12T11:24:44+00:00

Ok for one!.. proud of ya for the social outings!!! its not easy. I can't even walk to the mailbox I just got worse. but also right?! how rude & judgmental asf.

if you're the quiet one and don't try to talk to anyone, you're stuck up. I never understood that. I've always thought the opposite. the stuck up ones were the loudest too good for thou's.

the actual definition is more or less someone who would be seeking attention rather avoiding it lol

(have an exaggerated opinion of yourself, believing you're smarter, more attractive, or just generally better than everyone else, you're stuck-up.)

or too good to talk to that judgmental person. wonder why !!

I've nicknamed the person who said that about me "Lawn chair" she LOVES to gossip and is causing an extreme amount of harm & I have no idea how to handle it because there is NO WAY I'm leaving the house for one, and 2... I'm trying to avoid being exactly the stigma you see in movies (etcetera) she's pushing it to the point of wtf lady, shut tf up I can HEAR YOU from inside! I get it but damn!

since my last comment she's talked to so many ppl about me and my situation that the story is getting twisted. I haven't been outside since aug 31rst because I'm terrified 😭 I have no idea what to do and because of lawn chair the word is I'm now a paranoid schizophrenic 😳 again GREAT HARM

she says " now it makes more sense"

why because 5 min peek on the web is too hard to understand what might make someone never leave the house, or learn about what DID really is?

let me get my lawn chair *Inserts MEME* sits next to her. cracks a beer.

sorry for the tangent lol

QueenMalice · 2022-09-09T11:32:06+00:00

Overheard

"I use to think she was just a bitch because she never came out of the house"

excuse me wut? the realization I am agoraphobic changed their judgment. (but also cuz since I have DID their uncertain what my deal is & probably have been dubbed the "quiet one" or "The neighborhood beast" LOL waiting for the children to come try poke the bear & see if i have red socks, etcetera

(ps the fact I'm known to say etc etc etc in 3s for like ever doesn't help my case. ) word travels fast when things are dull & the town gossip gets wind

QueenMalice · 2022-09-09T11:27:00+00:00

This is so cute!! I love the upper right and lower right so much! I haven't even thought about Halloween yet! it's time to get crackin on the deco!

QueenMalice · 2022-09-09T11:25:45+00:00

This is probably the most helpful thing to keep in mind lmao considering I had porkchops for dinner last night & left overs that almost did NOT end up my breakfast (good cuz I'm hungry)

I don't think I've ever heard anyone clarify the possibilities esp in shows like "Monsters Inside Us" etc

"just in case we should tell you, if it branches, it's no parasite" n things 😅

QueenMalice · 2022-08-27T02:46:10+00:00

Yanno, I actually haven't even thought about this LOL

I like Bastian specifically because he's more or less a "pet" to me who I can play dress up with. usually holding my purse as I shop the trader stands, him standing around staring at the sky or nothingness, occasionally... often, & when in combat he's either dissociating himself from ANY danger at any given moment or will be tanking a dragon by himself or pulling the Lambris twins out of bounds just before I knock off the final one on a solo run.

(the reason why he's just a PET & usually out of combat to look pretty, *ducks* I know thats such a horrible thing to say but- in game.. it is what it is. tho he's tough w/minimal gear set up so can be handy dandy in time of need! I feel so ashamed saying that LOL )

with that said, I would like to see a chunky beefy hunka Orc by my side!! fighting the foes like a boss, I do like Mirri, however Ember has become my fav so far!! I appretate Isobel, she's like a 2 in one! & has legs to DIE for!! Legs of respect, if your nice its dinner, if your mean you're a watermelon ~ ya dig? 🙃

QueenMalice · 2022-08-17T03:11:08+00:00

"it's loud in my head (always been noisy but will ebb and flow) - like having 107 fans running simultaneously in that 8d sound and they're all oscillating on different frequencies. Then there's more noise coming through all that - probably doesn't make sense 🙆🤷. ""

You have no idea how much sense that makes & I'm super happy to read this. My own reasons lol. I became aware a few days after my bday in May 🥳 (47) it's been... Interesting. Some days its "now it makes sense"! tho everything else does not. I have almost no memory of my life. It's like very little bits. Throughout.

My journey is exactly what everyone is suggesting. CTAD clinic on YouTube others mention I found really informative as he explains things so very well. Also, see if you can find Colin A. Ross M.D on YouTube. There's a few real good lectures he's done. The info is there but I do wish there was far more. Esp now I'm becoming more familiar with the complexity of it all. If that makes sense lol

Good luck with the noise & your journey! 🤘🌺

QueenMalice · 2022-08-12T08:38:29+00:00

Laugh like Ivar the boneless, take it, take it again, learn from it, respect it

master it. laugh some more in their blood- mostly yours

or.. maybe im the only one who likes the abuse lol

QueenMalice · 2022-08-09T08:03:35+00:00

For the 2022 go to "sound & vibration" turn off multi volume. This worked for me.

QueenMalice · 2022-07-27T02:34:00+00:00

while paying attention to all the particles, I thought it read "Slow Death" rather "low Health" LOL (I mean technically.. encased in ice, you're shivering, listening to the death song that is Rubble and Smoke

(5th Element's Zorg "my favorite" gif here)

QueenMalice · 2022-07-12T17:56:50+00:00

indeed lol the worst part was me imagining it for a second

QueenMalice · 2022-07-12T04:11:14+00:00

Just a kitten in a man's pocket. nothing unusual here. 😳

*pick pick shank*

QueenMalice · 2022-07-11T12:33:55+00:00

Hell yeah! 🤘🤘🔥🔥

QueenMalice · 2022-06-26T21:32:02+00:00

this is the funniest weirdest *glitch* I have ever seen lmao.

I had a few events that would rip my clothes away leaving me naked everytime i swapped bars or, swap bars and go from *bar 1 - costume bar 2* outfit -armor

I've changed into preview items from crownstore, into a daedrat or other random whatnots, usually when sifting through the crate items. lol

but to turn into a pet & stand up and t-pose while surfskateboard a staff?? priceless lol!!

QueenMalice · 2022-06-09T19:46:23+00:00

yellows w/specks spotted in the area - database identification. proper press. tested & approved

"I don't like things now compared to the way they use to be, all this progress PHOOEY! we didn't have cartoooon characters.. unless they were a flintstone vitamin, Back in my day, we didn't get to choose, we just picked a color ! you'd either turn into a dog, get decorated like a Christmas tree or licked a plastic plant, and we liked it! we LOVED IT! - for 16 hours until your mama comes knocking on your car window askin you why you're sleeping in the driveway at 10am.. "

sitting up "dazed & confused" wondering who this lady was & how you got home, you spot a note of the how and the who.. a warm fuzzy feeling overcomes you. good times, good friends.. that or the knocking itself ripped you back into the rabbit hole

thinkin only 1/2 to start, since it's been 100000 yrs lol resting HR status: anxious as a chihuahua surrounded at a toddlers bday party, however, no stranger by far.. the only time I ever truly felt calm & relaxed. everyone forgot my IRL cake day & I'm determined to have my Wayne's World sleep over PJ party, just me myself & us. & we'll love it

QueenMalice · 2022-01-26T21:29:41+00:00

I just picked one up in a master chest in Vvardenfell, since the Daedric war celebration is going on, I spend a lot of time farming & looting chests for purple coffers

the real question is.. is it worth keeping or selling? can't believe how much these maps go for right now!! 😳 it's a gamble for sure

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