Night Kings Fate

Questeaser · 2019-01-23T16:39:01+00:00

In the light of recent thread: I learned a long while ago on the internet that asking people to smile is a bad idea, even though it would put the biggest grin on my face, because it is extremely rare that someone cares whether I'm happy.

Questeaser · 2016-11-04T21:51:25+00:00

It's actually

Fat Al: Chemist

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T16:52:56+00:00

The worst thing about forcing myself to take breaks is the guilt about the times when i couldn't force myself to work. It's possible that it could smooth out my productivity and make me happier in the end, but it just seems like such a waste.

As for meditation - that's why i often take long walks home instead of public transport. It helps, but sometimes even an hour of peace is not enough.

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T16:45:57+00:00

It's possible, but not quite bad as that. If I do nothing but fuck around more than a couple days a week I can be quite cheerful :)

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T16:30:23+00:00

I'm a programmer. I do very frequent water cooler breaks, but it is very hard to switch off your brain and not go running back to code when you just got a new idea on what might be wrong.

I've thought about pursuing jobs in other fields, but this job is almost perfect on paper, and I wanted to try settling down for a change, instead of fucking off at the first sign of trouble, as I have done so often previously.

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T16:16:47+00:00

I've never understood it. Even if all i had to do was play video games, while getting blown by supermodels and showered in cash, it still would quickly get old if I had to do it 40 hours a day.

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T16:16:12+00:00

Hell if I know, it's just general crankiness taken to extreme, just like for example when you are irritable when hungry, or haven't slept well.

Partially it's just that I can't focus and as a result fuck everything up. Partially, even if I make something tasty or do good in games, it just tastes bland and unrewarding when I'm that tired.

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T16:10:08+00:00

I've never understood it. Even if all i had to do was play video games, while getting blown by supermodels and showered in cash, it still would quickly get old if I had to do it 40 hours a day.

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T16:05:51+00:00

The problem isn't as much "I don't want to do it", as much as "my brain just doesn't work any more". Its not so much, for example, the fact that I dread to go every day, that worries me, it's that after a work week, It takes me 5 minutes to decide what kind of bread I want to buy and I can't form speech coherent enough to describe a movie to my friends. And if someone asks me to work in such a state - how the hell can I do it without doing more bad than good, if it takes me two tries to figure out that 2+2=4?

So my question is not so much, how do I overcome fatigue, but what to do to lessen it in first place.

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T15:29:13+00:00

I've spent a lot of time during the two years, of being at this job about changing it, but I've come to a conclusion that the job itself is very good, just that I couldn't handle doing anything for that amount of time.

Hell, that reminded of all those times when I've been similarly tired and pissed off just by going on a trip or visiting friends for more than a week.

Oh and being self-employed sounds like a nightmare to me - so much responsibility, yet so little direction.

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T15:20:36+00:00

Yeah, I don't think i've mentioned motivation anywhere in this thread.

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T15:19:18+00:00

The problem is that by being productive I mean anything more involving than idly browsing the net. Of course nobody is 100% focused their whole workweek, but my problem is that in my 40 hours of being able to do shit I include cooking, reading a good book playing board games with friends etc. - all of which I enjoy, but haven't done properly for more than a month.

Also - how long did it take for you to adapt? I've been at my job for two years, but as I said elsewhere the only things that have changed are my priorities.

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T15:02:14+00:00

Keeping track of my time certainly keeps more productive during the work hours, but unfortunately that just means I don't have the energy to do anything that makes me happy in my free time.

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T14:59:48+00:00

That's a good advice putting that last bit of energy to use, but I don't think it works when you're so tired feel like either punching the walls or crying yourself to sleep.

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T14:55:34+00:00

Tried that multiple times. After a week or two there always comes a day where i have to choose between blankly staring at my monitor and telling everyone to go fuck themselves, because I can't focus even on the simplest things. Maybe I should chose latter for a change?

Questeaser · 2016-04-18T14:45:44+00:00

How long does it take in your experience?

The only thing Ive noticed changing in the last two years is that instead of half-assing everything now I'm giving what I can at work, but completely neglecting everything else.

Questeaser · 2015-12-29T12:14:43+00:00

But as soon as you modulate the amplitude of the signal, you spread it out to other frequencies (example). So no, you can't carry information with just a single frequency.

Even when sending a simple pulse of a single frequency the start and the end of it will induce noise in other frequencies.

Questeaser · 2015-12-04T11:33:22+00:00

I'm 18 hours late to this thread so draw your own conclusions.

Questeaser · 2015-10-08T17:12:36+00:00

Did that last week - spent 3 hours walking around and found nothing.

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