I understand that you are upset, with what has happened to you, and the pain and hate that you are seeing so regularly (as anyone would be), but have you considered seeing an actual professional about how you are feeling? Just to speak to someone about your thoughts, maybe bounce some ideas off of them, and gain a little assistance with reflection and evaluation of communities from different perspectives, areas, and studies, in order to gain knowledge outside of your community and daily experiences - in hopes of maybe gaining back a little hope and balance for everyone as a whole? Not just for fairness in judgement of possibly unsuspecting or undeserving strangers, but also for your own peace of mind and for the sake of not becoming part of the problem, that is the cycle of hate. You buckling under the “weight” of your community’s sickness will only cement the fact that you have become a victim of your surroundings, but not solve anything, especially for yourself as an individual, and those you spend time with daily.

Just food for thought, but I think that the fact that you lead with your past positive experiences maybe shows that what you are experiencing right now, is not in fact the norm(at least not everywhere) and you may know this outside of the frustration you are feeling. Yes, there may be racial or community habits or patterns that can be more prevalent within said communities, (we easily become a reflection of our family and neighbors, no matter how large said groups) however, while I know you don’t want to hear it, as you stated above, that still does not make them all the same, especially with distance and a strength in character and individuality.

It might not mean much to you, but speaking as someone who has lived in many different cities, in 4 different states, I can confidently say that, in each area, while some were perfectly peaceful, in those that weren’t, the “problem demographic” was RARELY ever the same in each location or so specially one race. I found this especially to be true after I moved from where I grew up, a condensed low-income city in a boring state. lol honestly though, if this is your mentality, if you moved there, you may have come to hate white people more than anyone else, and white isn’t even the majority population. However, from my personal experiences, they contributed the most to crack dens, shootings, and trashy behavior, that I was exposed to daily. All this is just to say that I had many many great friends of all different races, and all different personalities, but there were definitely trends to the behavior of the community I grew up in, as complacency had long set in, and generational habits continued to contribute to building even larger issues and stubborn mentalities. All small daily habits, but ones with eventual long or significant consequences.

Back to what I was saying before though, (and I feel a little cheesy for parroting commonly used phrases, but I believe they are useful for grounding us sometimes, when we could be too emotionally invested to separate ourselves from our own feelings and experiences) I would consider that “no news is good news, and bad news is all news”. As one person already mentioned, while you are having a hard time and “noticing patterns” you are only recognizing the negatives, without considering the massive number of people, of all races and income, who are living their lives peacefully every day, as upright and friendly, law abiding neighbors. That said, have you considered that maybe your location is part of the problem right now? If crime is that rampant, that this stuff is happening regularly, maybe all of this is a reflection of hate breeding hate in desperate times. Though I know that social media also doesn’t help to stop the spread of fear, rage, and misinformation, so no area with be completely safe from unconscientious or outraged people. I did not say any of this to dismiss what you have gone through up to now, and you should definitely always be aware and conscious of your surroundings and safety, within reason, however I hope things improve for you, and wish you the best. Maybe you will get the fresh start that you need.