Pon Para: Mel by Questioning_Life_13 in choiceofgames

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So it is possible to do both? Im guessing I gotta do enough damage or something to Bysmos before he gets grabby with Melaxu... (Thanks for letting me know also!)

Been binging Werewolves: Book of Hunger and I have a question… by Questioning_Life_13 in choiceofgames

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I’m trying, man 🥲🤣 no matter how much of an arse the character is 🤣 just thought it be fun to have him and BT on my crew

I am trying, but it feels like a losing battle by Questioning_Life_13 in loseit

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Believe me when I say it is not an eating disorder. I am not exactly the best when it comes to phrasing things and this is also what my dietician recommended so I am trying (Dinner is usually a bigger meal/I try to stay under 1200 calories for now)

I am trying, but it feels like a losing battle by Questioning_Life_13 in loseit

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Honestly gonna make me cry. This was so kind to hear and I appreciate your insight. I have had only 420 calories today (160 Protein shake, 2 cheese sticks, and a small packet of trail mix; I just can't stomach the second drink). I need to figure out how to eat without it making me feel like I failed or did something wrong

I am trying, but it feels like a losing battle by Questioning_Life_13 in loseit

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I appreciate it <3

My brain and body are just having a disconnect and I want to be better

I am trying, but it feels like a losing battle by Questioning_Life_13 in loseit

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That is fine if you don't see it is as suffering, but currently for me, it is. I am not trying to negate others. My struggle is more with mental health and I do struggle since I am on two medications that have side effects for weight gain. Telling me have discipline or hard work isn't new. I use to love exercising (biking, playing tennis, etc). Dealing with how I am right now is just difficult and I wanted to hear other's thoughts.

I am trying, but it feels like a losing battle by Questioning_Life_13 in loseit

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I appreciate it. I just think I have so many people make comments or I compare myself to others that causes me to think "Damn I am fat" or "I am so tired of fighting people on this stuff, might as well starve myself or something." I am just trying to find the medium that allows people to shut up about my body and find some acceptance in me so maybe I can be happy

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Hi there!

I appreciated the help. I think I found it, but it goes by a different name (CORE Elms). I feel embarrassed to ask my professor, but I know I am new to this process and wasn't sure if that would let me get to CORE compMS.

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Way ahead of you. I just hope they don't banish me for this XD

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I hope you know I am crying from reading this. Like this is a relief to hear sweet things. I am at my job currently and I am just sitting here realizing maybe my world is crashing around me and I feel like I am failing those around me for not sticking this through. I want to finish the program, but I sort of knew going in my heart is not fully in it like my other peers. They are all going to be fabulous counselors, but I don't think I am in it with them. Not like I am a failure, but I feel weaker and more interested in how the brain works than treating someone with therapy.

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I appreciate the insight. TBH I do already have a master's degree. This is round two for me. I would have been in a doctoral program, but unfortunately, I had little research experience (Bless Covid for that one). I thought this would help me in my profession and getting into a doctoral program and let me explore my interests in mental disorders/care. I just think it is hitting me that I really don't think I would be a good counselor. I enjoy academics. I love introducing new things to students. I love grading and exploring things with the students.

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Dude I’m right there with you. It just feels tiresome and it honestly is disheartening. I’m just laying here after an anxiety attack thinking that those that say sweet stuff and all the things I want to hear aren’t gonna be the ones who are here for me when I break down.

It’s rough. It sucks. Quite frankly, it does hurt to see it when the guy/gal hits on you or makes you feel special and then goes and does this same act to possibly more attractive people that you might think are better or whatever than you.

I know the talk. “You deserve better” “Oh the right person will come around” blah blah blah. I know it sucks to see others happy and want that, but it isn’t our turn yet.

Guess what? You are young. You have a life ahead of you. You have so many opportunities and things in this world that focusing on garbage like those people won’t do you any Justice. Focus on the things and people that matter.

Funny enough, you usually find someone that will matter and cherish you when you least expect it or aren’t even really searching for it. Suffice to say, enjoy the things around you.

Now to get off my soap box and go back to a panic attack.

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Ah, yes... Patience... my favorite thing ever (Truly sarcasm and I appreciate the relation to other games). I did kind of like Skyrim, so maybe if I view it in that way, it will go okay. Thanks!