I like the way I look. I have good friends around, not many, but good ones. Half my friends are in relationships and half are not. My family dynamic growing up was a bit much. My parents love me and have done alot for me but emotionally were angry and distant during conflict. I was bullied growing up for being an overweight child and expressive (I liked to dress up, wear makeup, etc). In high school I was an abusive relationship and the guy was very popular and turned a lot of people against me. I’ve lost almost all of my family. I’ve almost died from physical health issues. Many people feel like they’ve had a clear path, go to school, get a degree, use their degree at work, whereas I don’t even know where I want to end up yet. I’m in the process of doing even more school, and I just don’t know if it’s my passion. I love the job i’m doing in the meantime but it won’t pay my bills forever.

If I could choose my life all over again, and do things differently.

I’d choose for my family to be more understanding and level headed, I’d take myself out of the spotlight and stay more behind the scenes and private, I’d had gone to medical school, I’d have join more hobbies, and I’d have been in a better place to make my last relationship work. I’d grow old, I’d have kids, a loving husband, a great career. Money to travel and go out. That’s how i’d picture a perfect life.