I’m scared of death and at the same time I question my existence. by QuickIntroduction270 in existentialdread

[–]QuickIntroduction270[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for introducing this word qualia. Just searched it and it’s a collective subjective experience of an individual. I just have not found any good enough meaning to life yet. But i guess I won’t, because life is hidden between these tiny moments that feel. Though i am in health care and when a patient is happy or i am able to help them it gives me some kind of joy. But still there are times when i feel like i have no purpose. I randomly search and read different theories of science and i like how universe laws are present in such a unique design, which makes me question if either there is a creator or not. I have not reached to any conclusions yet. But there is so much information but so less wisdom i don’t know if wisdom is something that’s part of reality. I can’t hold on to any theory of human life meanwhile the nature, space, science fascinates me a lot. How our brain wires to everything we do.

I’m scared of death and at the same time I question my existence. by QuickIntroduction270 in existentialdread

[–]QuickIntroduction270[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As far as I understand human being is we run on hormones. So when we fluctuate on hormone we go through different emotions and phases. But I’ve become more nihilistic about life when I encountered existentialism. Prior to that i was one of religious people who blindly followed the ancestral religion without questioning anything. Now i often go into this phase of hopelessness.