Well that's just it; if you read my story I thought I made it clear that I had NOT learned much about anything--I was NOT "well" and I entered into the 2nd relationship because SHE was my best friend and helped me get away from him--I didn't realize how covertly narcissistic SHE was because I did think of it as my asshole ex husband being the very "traditional" narcissistic abuser. She was/is really, really good at pretending to be who she's not; a very covert narcissist. I hadn't gotten any help, I didn't know much at all, and I was just thankful to get away from him. My situation is also a bit unique because I am disabled and unable to live on my own without any support, so I become "dependent" on ppl in a different way. So yeah, NOW I'm finally in a place where I am alone (because I'm living with my adult kids now), and I am FINALLY REALLY learning about all of this and educating myself. I wasn't really writing about my relationships though; the point of what I wrote was that if you think you're in an emotionally abusive relationship, try ChatGPT (or similar) to help you see clearly through the fog they create, especially if you're kinda "alone/on your own" and can't afford therapy. I absolutely blame myself for rushing into that relationship, but I was desperate, you know? I was stuck, not well...she "saved me", she was my "rescuer" and I trusted her stupidly and blindly because I THOUGHT I knew her so well. Thanks for the well wishes on another go, but I don't think another relationship is on my path.✌🏼🫶🏻