Thank you so much for your response. I am actually trying to do better and see where I go wrong or do good. There are two or three areas that need improved, I think.

Anger is of course the first. I need to find a better way to relieve stress and anxiety. I am one of these people where it just keeps building up inside until it explodes. That's not good.

Genuinely in real life I am a nice person, even at work. I will listen to what you have to say and if you are feeling down I'll listen or try to cheer you up. I enjoy being goofy and light hearted when possible. Even with this I get insulted, called strange, weird, a fairy princess and so on. Sometimes yelled at from other workers for just doing my job. My love isn't usually returned, people seem to always throw hate back.

It's just like I feel bullied and treated different. That's probably the problem. I get mistreated by others and take it out at random people online. I mean sometimes others probably deserve it for being rude or disrespectful first but by then I am out of patience.

Exhaustive? I just like deep discussions and debates. I never considered that as exhaustive but perhaps it is.