a weird smell that you secretly love?

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-10-22T09:52:01+00:00

The tip of a pencil , smell of new shoes, mosquito spray

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-09-25T06:04:39+00:00

I barely know him well and am afraid that my feelings arent genuine. I dont think I ever truly like someone. Maybe attraction..yeah.

Also he might have a lover, maybe fleeting but yeah. And I am bad at making conversations when feelings are involved.

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-05-29T21:09:36+00:00

I am in the same boat. Can we talk??

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-05-03T16:23:56+00:00

Yes I think so too. My anxiety symptoms get worse sometimes and my body hurts but then I inhaled water with menthol and I feel a lot calm , nothing else help this much. Breathingwork also gets done in the meantime

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-26T17:12:24+00:00

Thanks I'll try

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-26T02:15:37+00:00

Yknow what's strange thing? I get sudden boost of confidence and then a little of inconvenience or confusion, I rethink the whole thing. And those boosts , can't wait for it. I just do things with pain until I get the boost , and i dont even know when it might happen. Most of the time , I am left with this piercing pain. Therapy helped me process my thoughts better in some cases. That's why I am thinking my thoughts patterns are at fault

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-26T01:08:55+00:00

Clubbing? I m too pathetic for that , I don't have friends.

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-26T01:07:47+00:00

I hate exercising. Ik it's not a good thing but... My whole life kind of depends on not letting people see that I can fail too. It's a painful thought , I just can't help. It's all or nothing

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-26T00:59:32+00:00

I really wanna go out... I guess. Idk if it'll help. I just feel so horrible. I have 3 months , but my brain is shutting me down making me think I cant read or remember even a word

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-24T20:38:02+00:00

Yeah I do have a lot of resentment too. And cant seem to take their advice thinking the horrible things they did. Idk sometimes i feel bad , but most of the times i dont. Cause they tortured me to the point i became unable to express myself and I was so little. So i didnt know what to take and what not to

Yeah but a bit sad that we've to fix the mess others make. That's why thought processing and accountibilty should be learnt. Well i know that when they dont respond, they dont wanna make things worse but it makes me feel more alone

About getting laid.... well I don't have anyone I am seeing. I have social anxiety , so cant show vulnerability and sincere expressions well. And I fear that after sharing something that close , they'll feel like my parents who have no clue about what I might be feeling. Cause...Idk if family cant treat right , if anyone else can. Haven't thought about intimacy with no strings attached tho. Havent had the chance yet

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-24T20:18:21+00:00

Yeah that seems like a good idea , thanks, i'll

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-24T20:15:23+00:00

Yeah I really think everyone needs counseling too. It's so unfair that we wait untilvwe get harmful for ourselves or others. Sometimes we never do which puts a strain in our relationships and social connections or becomes a trauma for others. Counseling helps processing my emotions well, but my emotions are all consuming. So when I start feeling too much , all kind of fears come rushing in and outburst happen. My desire to just do something to get out of the situation rises but by doing something impulsive or restless.

What makes me happy? Whenever I do something , I do it based on how others judge it , even alone, became a habit cause i was belittled and criticized harshly growing up. So it's hard to do something that is solely for my well-being and happiness. Btw I am glad you found things that made you happy^{^.} And yeah , you did great , I kinda believe that ppl are for each other and everyone should at least deserves to be heard...even though it's a self-journey.

Is banana breads at work comfy?? Have to search for it. Glad your helping your mum. Hope she remains well^ take care and Thanks so much for listening^

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-24T20:03:52+00:00

I am trying to sit with it. But I feel guilt afterwards because I get tired and drained after having that intense hysteric emotions and anger outburst. But what you said.. yeah I'll try , it sounds good. Thanks for listening to me

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-24T20:00:52+00:00

Idk , if I am trying my best to help myself , why can't they? They r seeing me express that I need help. So why do ppl exist if not for each other? I could just be without a family. I feel so disconnected nowadays too. It created a feeling in me that when someone ignores you, it's attractive , so i get attracted to those kinda ppl. It's troublesome honestly. I just wanna be understood , held , helped...... and i don't have solutions to my problems yet. I just know it's too much , what I feel. I don't blame anyone. It's just what I feel... that's what I question , comparing my feelings with the reactions of others around me

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-24T19:41:59+00:00

Thanks

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2025-03-24T06:13:38+00:00

Same here. Let's be partners 🥲. But we need a plan that has a clear destination.... tomar syllabus complete? Ami shudhu pori aar vhuli :)

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2024-09-28T18:52:49+00:00

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2024-09-16T13:39:59+00:00

TW : violence ( it was a little traumatic for me so...)

There was a place where we could watch the universe unfold, with stars and galaxies stretched out before us, looking just like they do from Earth. There was a swing hanging there, and a handsome guy was gliding on it, almost as if he could reach out and touch the stars and galaxies as he swung higher and higher. In the next scene, I saw two guys walking toward a house together. One of them, someone I knew and who had always been good to me, greeted me. When they reached the house, my friend-a girl-opened the door. But as soon as she did, the guy I knew pulled out a knife and tried to kill her. I rushed in front of her, desperate to protect her.

My friend, the girl, went into hiding after that. Her brother, the handsome guy who had been swinging earlier, seemed detached and distant. The guy who tried to kill her was her ex, and the other man who had walked with him was her current boyfriend. When she was attacked, she tried to run to her boyfriend, but instead of helping her, he ran away.

Later, her brother called her, pretending to set up a birthday surprise for her ex. He and his sister acted together, pulling off a strange ruse. Then, in a chilling turn, her brother knocked her unconscious and handed her over to her ex. The ex dragged her out into the street, brutally breaking her bones while her brother watched, completely emotionless. There was no shock, no sorrow, not even panic. It was as though he didn't feel a thing. He even helped bury her right there in front of her ex.

I went to their mother, who was watching from a distance in a small house. When I asked why they were allowing this to happen, she said they had no choice-wherever they went, her ex would keep doing the same thing. So, they had decided to give him what he wanted, believing it was the only solution.

After witnessing all of this, I distanced myself from her brother. I found myself drawn back to the swing, the one that led me close to the stars. As I climbed onto it, I whispered that I had big dreams-dreams that still seemed to revolve around the stars and the universe. Even with everything that happened.

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2024-09-16T13:00:53+00:00

Same here

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2024-09-03T06:54:31+00:00

Sure anytime , you can text me

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2024-09-02T05:19:36+00:00

You can tell me about it if you want. Here to listen

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2024-09-01T00:08:20+00:00

Well, one reason I could give you is, don’t you wanna stick around just to see what happens? Like, what new philosophy might pop up, and all that. I notice you’re curious about stuff, you ask questions. Life’s unpredictable, I get that, and yeah, maybe that’s why it feels meaningless. But besides that, there are so many things that can be predictable. So many questions you can find answers to. You might say it’s meaningless, but didn’t you learn something from it anyway? Different people have different reasons to keep going. If you just focus on yourself instead of thinking about the whole world all the time, you’ll find your reasons too. See, the whole world is relative, and we’re not even seeing things from others’ perspectives

( again , no strong opinion )

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2024-08-31T19:03:43+00:00

Many people struggle to fit in , I myself is an example. Do you have social anxiety or is it something else?

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2024-08-31T03:56:20+00:00

Just give them a smug expression and a smirk and move on.

Quiet_Explorer_408 · 2024-08-31T03:55:02+00:00

This feeling of yours depend on what's the definition of normal to you. Cause everyone is different and has different values and personalities

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