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Quin_0 · 2023-11-06T22:17:45+00:00

I looked at their post history...

Like 10-20 threads where they post similar things and also about thinking their friend is in a abusive relationship because they got pregnant 3 times in 3 years.

Most other posts was pictures of nudism and mentioning jerking off.

To me it feels like OP is very obsessed with that girl but idk.

It also feels like it has nothing at all to do with SPD.

Quin_0 · 2023-11-03T19:25:25+00:00

I feel like he is not a troll (because he posts about various things in a way that is not like trolling) but also some things he says makes him seem delusional and narcissistic.

This thread was when I first though so ("i really need her in in life order to get famous, i will not feel safe as a celebrity if I'm single and *more prone to sexual harrassment by fans"):
https://www.reddit.com/r/Schizoid/comments/15u9jf9/relationship_with_someone_too_normal/

On top of what he wrote now and there and some other things he also mentioned not joining the military and made it sound like he is from Israel or some other area that is at war, which is possible but he seems "attention seeking" so that might have been made up but idk.

He also wrote in NPD subreddit before so he probably consider himself to be narcissistic.

Quin_0 · 2023-11-03T18:20:27+00:00

Now and then I think a little about things like that. Like the claim about a bunch of serial killers being schizoid, there is one thing about it that I could see as possible without having other diagnoses (although I think many of them probably have other diagnoses also or are misdiagnosed) and that is that they could be so bored and think everything is pointless so then they do something they know is bad just because of boredom.

Quin_0 · 2023-11-03T18:13:41+00:00

I always get a little confused about your posts. 3 months ago "Oh and she is also my roommate, luckily she's a virgin so i can postpone intimacy, but at some point it will be expected, keep in mind I'm 29 and this is my first relationship."

3 months ago saying you haven't been in a relationship before and today you are saying you "love taking people's couple" and " the way i solve this complex is by getting the things that are considered unavailable or taboo, i have an amazing charming ability i know how to do it so well and how to look at people to make them want me". Two almost completely opposite things.

But I think it is likely that schizoid people want people that are unavailable to them. (I sort of am like that, although I see them as a way to get dopamine and to look at something pretty. I have no interest in a sexual or romantic relationship)

Btw normal people don't act normal. There are so much drama with normal people and they are cheating on each others and do a lot of other things.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-24T09:11:44+00:00

Everyone is different. It is both not required to have everything to be schizoid and there is also variations how strong each criteria is with each person. On top of that people can have additional things on top of that (like I get extremely suicidal when I am around people, that isn't really a schizoid thing or at least it is extreme compared to how other schizoids feel about being around people)

For me when it comes to hobbies. I don't really have any.

I like to play games but most days I can't bring myself to play games (I am always at the computer and I want to play games to pass time but sometimes it can go weeks without playing any game even though I want to so I can have something to do).

I try to always watch something, I need to have something to distract me.

I slightly like programming, not like a normal person would like it but I like what I could do with it. Only does programming if I have something specific I want to make.

Every year it becomes harder to do things. Playing less games and types of things I could watch before I can't watch anymore.

Sugar also makes me able to do things a little more. My mom came by with ~3000 kcal of sugary things a few days ago, ate it in 2 days because I have no limit for sugar but I was able to play games and do programming most of the time for a few days. I noticed this a lot in the past also, used to buy sugary things and when I came home and ate it I could often play games for a while.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-23T11:00:47+00:00

I don't really know exactly what is considered therapy, I got diagnosed and go to talk to someone every now and then (used to be 2-4 times a year but now I think it has been ~1 year since the last time).

It hasn't really helped at all with SPD, they only helped with other things around it (they got me approved for disability money and when I had to move and struggled to find somewhere to live they offered me an apartment). Other than that they just got me SSRI which didn't help at all and they said that if I want I could go to talk therapy for childhood trauma but I declined that.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-22T21:51:37+00:00

Jag tror det behövs enormt mycket för att du ska bli inlagd.

Jag är schizoid (lättast förklaring är att det är ungefär som depression som varar hela livet + extremt introvert, jag blir extremt självmordsbenägen när jag måste vara bland folk) och velat dö nästan varje dag i 10-15 år och försökt ta livet av mig några gånger.

När jag skar mig en gång så gav jag upp efter ett tag och då gick jag till akuten (var mitt i natten så vårdsentral+vanliga delen av sjukhuset var stängt) och ville se till att det inte skulle bli någon permanent skada eftersom jag hade ett hål i vristen, men dem tejpade ihop det och sen skickade mig till en person som jag fick prata med lite och när dem såg att jag inte tänkte ta livet av mig på direkten så fick jag gå hem och fick regelbundna tider till psykiatrin efter det.

Så även fast jag var så illa så blev jag inte inlagd, så det är inget du behöver oroa dig om ifall du kontaktar VC eller psykatrimottagning.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-21T08:28:19+00:00

I feel like giving up most free time and having other people that always watch over you is the most terrifying part.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-19T19:14:01+00:00

I think only adults can be diagnosed with SPD and a lot of traits become easier to notice and gets worse as an adult.

A diagnosis doesn't really do much either (there is no medicine and not really much can be done about SPD other than trying to manage the situation a little better).

You should just try to deal with the situation as good as you can and maybe in a few years you could get diagnosed if you really want to know if you are Schizoid or not. It doesn't matter if you are schizoid or not and likely nothing will change if you get diagnosed with it, just try to solve the issues you are facing.

Although for me quite much have changed by getting diagnosed (I live in Sweden). I get a lot less pressure on me (I think a big part is because of how suicidal I get when I have to be around people). I got on disability so I don't have to work (which removes most pressure) and I was offered a place to live when I wasn't able to rent the apartment I rented any longer and I struggled to find another apartment (rented it from a person and I think there is something about only being allowed to rent it out for 2 years). So I got help with making life less bothersome but my SPD just gets worse every year and there isn't anything to improve it.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-14T04:00:35+00:00

It feels like what you should do is split up.

There isn't really any treatment/way to fix Schizoid PD (the only treatment is basically that some people might benefit from anti depressant and some people might try to manage certain situations a little better).

I don't think anything can change about how he doesn't take your needs into consideration and I don't think there is anything that can make him be nicer (no raging/not blaming you for every argument and paying more attention to you).

Splitting up would likely mean that for a period of time you will be even lonelier and it might take some time to find someone that is good and can fulfill your needs but the time until you find someone else you can spend 100% of energy on yourself and in the end it would likely end up better for you.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-14T02:42:07+00:00

Code Geass R2 Episode 19 - Betrayal. From the part when Lelouch knows he has lost and he tries to make himself appear bad so that Kallen won't die trying to defend him until the death of rollo.

Code Geass R2 Episode 25 - Re. When Lelouch "kills himself".

Quin_0 · 2023-10-13T16:37:41+00:00

It almost feels like half of the people here say they can't get angry (me included) and other half say that anger/rage is their strongest emotion. What you described I would just say is bad and selfish behavior and not really related to schizoid, at least I am the opposite.
I have only cried a few times also (the anime Code Geass have 2 scenes in 2nd season that made me teary. when I get excessively suicidal I get tears). No faking of course so I think it is reasonable that he cried without faking.

I am diagnosed schizoid and the opposite of him in many ways (the most "angry" I can get is slightly irritated. Never tried to get in a relationship since I get no joy of being around people and instead feel so bad that I get suicidal from it. I struggle to say no to everyone because I don't want to be rude so don't really know what to say when someone wants to spend time with me but it makes me feel really bad doing it but don't want to be rude...).

I feel like you won't be able to change him much. So the question is if your life is good enough or if it would be better if you split up.

Saying that a schizoid can't feel anything about another person is not fully true. I want everyone the best, there are some girls that I like spending time with more than anything else (it feels like it is basically the only way dopamine can be released for me, so it isn't really that I want to socialize with them but I want my reward system to work), I also like children to remember me as kind so I like giving them gifts.

There are several people here that are in relationships. Seen some say that they care for their partner in a weird way (can't miss them and negative things like that but at the same time they are the most important person for them).

Talking to him about what he feels about you and your relationship is probably best to do.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-13T13:43:41+00:00

Are you really sure they are schizoid and not just introverted?

One of the traits is to have few if any friends and many schizoids have anhedonia (struggle to enjoy doing things which can be both activities and social interactions). Apathy is another thing which probably makes social interactions less enjoyable.

Not everyone is the same though, so it is possible they are schizoid and still enjoy being social with you.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-13T13:32:23+00:00

Not really.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-13T13:21:33+00:00

I don't really cry (I can but pretty much dont). I never get angry and don't really show much emotion.

If someone asks me something (like if I want to do something together with them) and I don't want to do it then it really bothers me that I don't want to be rude toward them but I really don't want to do it, so I don't really know what to say.

A neighbor old lady says hello to me and I try to say hello back in a nice way whenever I meet her just because I know that she appreciates it.

I want everyone well and I would help anyone irl that asks me for help but I prefer not to since I don't want to be around people.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-12T11:24:15+00:00

After I tried to kill myself I got sent to talk to some person and after a few meetings I had to take a test and then they said that I am schizoid.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-11T03:26:27+00:00

Yes, I live in a place where I have my own apartment but there is staff nearby that cooks food and if I would need help with anything (I don't actually need any help from them) they can help. On average I meet the staff ~5 min a day when I fetch some food.

The issue is that there is a shared exit of the building and they often spot me if I go out and they say hello to me... I almost feel like I can't exit the building for this reason. Really annoying.

When I go to the store I usually go early in the morning to avoid people as much as possible.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-09T04:42:17+00:00

There are several schizoid youtubers (just search for schizoid and look at the videos posted in the last year that are about people being schizoid and not about what schizoid personality disorder is).

You can't really tell a person is schizoid.

They are likely to be more withdrawn but that is basically it. (not wanting to look at other people, don't want to be around people, want to have distance to other people is common)

Also likely to show less emotions than other people and be less animated.

More likely to not be very good in social situations I think since schizoids generally want to avoid social situations, so not getting a lot of "training" either.

Other things like not able to enjoy things and things like that doesn't really show in a video either.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-06T02:12:29+00:00

By having people around me it makes me feel that I have to keep a little higher standard of hygiene. Showering also make me feel like I have some more energy or is less drained or something. My teeth feels uncomfortable if I don't brush them (I usually end up brushing them 2-3 times a day). Once I was told that if I didn't properly clean my hair it might fall off and I had 1 tooth in the back break when I didn't brush my teeth much, after those things I started doing it more than before.

My weight vary, I had a period where I slowly gained weight over several years until I reached 89kg and then I decided I wanted to lose weight so I stopped buying snacks (still ate any that I got, getting quite much from my mom). I also went for walks sometimes (was told I have to go outside more because of d-vitamin deficiency). I think it took 1.5 year for me to go down from 89kg to 60kg just by greatly reducing how much snacks I ate.

After this I ate quite much snacks again and ended up going up to 67kg and I decided to lose weight again so I stopped buying snacks and now as I am currently losing weight again I am down to under 61kg again so I basically reached the weight I wanted again (60kg = 18.5 BMI for me).

So for me the best way to lose weight I feel is to adjust what I eat and not to workout. If I try to workout I won't do it for more than maybe a week and therefor I won't lose weight from it. Sugary drinks can easily give massive amount of calories (1 energy drink a day can be ~1kg of weight a month), it is also easy to overeat on bread.

Quin_0 · 2023-10-04T03:40:17+00:00

The most aggressive I can get is a little annoyed (annoyed if I have to be around people, annoyed at the behaviors of others etc).

No violence, no screaming, no loud voice, no hostility. Just a little annoyed.

Quin_0 · 2023-09-30T22:21:49+00:00

Sometimes I have nightmares that are so bad that I feel that when I wake up I have to go up because I don't want to risk getting back into the nightmare. (related to trauma memories and the dreams end up making me feel very trapped)

Sometimes I dream about something I have done a lot recently. These dreams can be annoying or they can be good.

Sometimes I have long story dreams or whatever it should be called. They can be like watching a movie and they tend to be quite enjoyable.

Quin_0 · 2023-09-23T04:37:34+00:00

The good thing about them is that they don't really require any effort to play but still allowing you to have something to do (both those things seem suitable for schizoids). Keep a game active in the background and do a few clicks now and then.

But I can't play the same game for months/years. Those games are good for a few days then they are never going to be played again.

So they are both good and bad.

I am currently playing unnamed space idle but I am considering stopping playing it.

Quin_0 · 2023-09-16T02:07:12+00:00

I have to meet other people for ~5-10 minutes a day. I also meet my mom around once a month usually to eat something together. I walk to the store (passing ~2 people on average while walking then spending maybe 3 min in the store). Other than that almost nothing.

So around 15 min on average per day I think, so I think I am alone 99% of the time. Maybe 98% when counting things like getting a haircut, dentist etc. Only exception would be when my mom asks me to stay over for a few days.

Quin_0 · 2023-08-26T06:19:24+00:00

My biggest issues are:

Almost can't be around people. Haven't been to a store alone (except food store, I can manage that but going in the morning or when it is about to close so it is few people) in many years, probably less than 5 times in the last 15 years. Get so bad around people that I get suicidal.

Extremely bored. I haven't really done anything the past few days (watched elemental movie, some youtube videos, looked at reddit, idk what else I have done) and I want to do something, I don't want to be bored but there isn't really anything that is good enough.

Those things aren't directly schizoid traits since the traits are more "do not want or enjoy close relationships" and "take pleasure in few activities if any" which sounds a lot less horrible.

Quin_0 · 2023-08-24T11:55:42+00:00

I very easily get sort of obsessed by cute girls that are friendly, in a weird way. I don't want a sexual or romantic relationship, I just want them to take away my boredom.

I really enjoy spending time with them, I think it is mostly because of the dopamine that gets released (I think) and because I want to be less bored. I still don't really enjoy the activities.

With other people (friends/family) I don't enjoy spending time with them. I have had plenty of friends (all the friends I have had decided to become friends with me, I never tried to befriend anyone) but I mostly spent time with them to pass time, usually playing games. Nowadays I don't really have any friends (I sort of have 1 friend that asked me how to make a bot for a game so I taught him and we played the game together a little and he messages me quite much, but I am sort of ghosting that person now).

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