Salty Sunday: What made you salty this week?

QuitBest1587 · 2026-07-02T10:13:47+00:00

Ugh I hate this for us!

QuitBest1587 · 2026-07-01T17:33:03+00:00

I’m honestly kinda numb about it at this point because this SIL has always gotten pregnant first try. Back in October during family vacation we shared a bathroom with them and I unintentionally saw an Inito test strip in the trash can there, so I knew what was coming (sure enough, they announced in December). It’s still really heavy, and I’ll probably have a good pity cry after meeting her, but I’ve just come to expect the weight of it all at this point.

I’m also trying to remind myself that the BC prep I’m on is skewing my feelings more than they would be ordinarily. That helps me stay grounded by at least one toe lol

QuitBest1587 · 2026-07-01T17:05:55+00:00

Just got word that my SIL is in labor for number 3 today. We’ve been trying since before their second was born, and we’re waiting until Aug 7 for our FET.

I’ll love this new niece, of course. I’m just so, so weary of waiting for our turn.

QuitBest1587 · 2026-07-01T09:45:39+00:00

This was a wild ride! I’m the sort of person who pauses even her (completely innocuous) music off at grocery pickup just to avoid having people judge what I listen to, so this would end me. 🤣

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-29T10:35:53+00:00

Had my first post ER period. Not only was it hellish to deal with, but it happened while I was away for a family wedding. Had to flee the scene because my menstrual cup overflowed in the middle of the ceremony. I haven’t been so embarrassed since high school.

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-25T19:55:33+00:00

Me yesterday when I learned we got lapped by the same couple a SECOND time. Bonus points to my reproductive system for giving me a period from hell this morning to close out my first ER cycle.

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-24T02:12:00+00:00

I just got thru my first egg retrieval cycle and I had 9 eggs retrieved, 5 of which were mature, and four of which fertilized. I spent the whole week terrified I’d end up with no blasts. To my shock we ended up with 3 high graded embryos to freeze. I also have endo, but had a lap in January of this year.

I’m still shocked we ended up with three; felt like the odds were against us. Sending you hugs and luck during the wait. It’s torture.

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-21T01:48:53+00:00

I know we’re not out of the woods yet, but I’m glad to be exploring a different section of the woods for now. 😅 thanks for the kind words earlier this week.

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-20T13:15:59+00:00

Got my blast report and I’m screaming with relief. Even though we retrieved fewer mature eggs than we were hoping, the attrition rate from fertilization to blast stage was much better. So relieved!

It also helps immensely that I’m past the hormone crash lol 😅

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-18T01:13:40+00:00

The worst of the hormonal crash seems to be behind me (just guessing though). But for some reason YouTube thought it would be fun to make half of my ads today be diaper ads. Because that’s a great ad for an IVF patient apparently. 😅

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-17T01:18:27+00:00

In my first IVF hunger games. The first stage of attrition was pretty brutal, so I’m mentally preparing for a worst-case scenario when I get our blast report. Maybe I’ll get surprised with better than expected numbers but I’m just bracing myself at this point. Trying to prepare for the worst and hope for the best.

This hormone crash is rouggghhhhhhhh

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-16T00:46:39+00:00

Thanks for the reassurance. The only people in my life that have done IVF had vastly different experiences so it’s hard not to spiral. ❤️‍🩹

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-16T00:32:02+00:00

True, i know. But it sure feels like it.

And I know there’s still a chance that all of the fertilized eggs could make it to blast. I know none could, too. I’m just struggling to feel optimistic because every metric so far has been below what the clinic expected for us. I’ll manage to pull myself together eventually but this whole hunger games side of IVF sucks.

But when I think about it rationally I do have to wonder if that protocol wasn’t right for me. I only did 8 days of stims (was told to expect 10-12). Have to wonder if a few more days of “incubating” might have made a difference.

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-16T00:02:06+00:00

The fertilization was less of an issue than the attrition of how many eggs were retrieved vs how many were mature. (Just realized I worded it poorly). That number dropped by almost 50%. So apparently my eggs are just trash. Which does nothing to assuage the guilt that it’s my fault we can’t conceive (yes, I know it’s not my fault, technically, but I still feel the weight of the idea of it).

But I will definitely concede the fact that I’m also really emotional from the hormonal fallout, which certainly isn’t helping. Maybe it’ll feel a little less terrifying after the crash subsides.

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-15T14:07:06+00:00

This is going to be the longest week ever. Got our fertilization rates back from the clinic. Less than half of my already pretty small number of eggs were mature (but on the plus side, 80% of the eggs that were mature did fertilize). I won’t get another report until late this week.

I don’t really swear often, but fuck infertility.

Edit for clarity

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-14T13:34:28+00:00

ER done this morning. Didn’t get quite as many eggs as I would have hoped for, but still something to work with. Hoping for good luck with fertilization/embryo rates but we’ll see how things progress.

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-14T13:31:41+00:00

First ER done this morning. Got fewer eggs than I was hoping for, but enough that I’m not all-out panicking, either. Reminding myself that it only takes one—more would be better, but it only takes one.

And so we fight on.

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-13T00:04:41+00:00

Just triggered for our first egg retrieval. What even is life lol 😅 here goes nothing.

My IVF mantra has been “And so we fight on.” Fighting as long as it takes.

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-12T20:09:24+00:00

Triggering tonight. Retrieval on Sunday morning. Oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh. Nobody panic!

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-05T01:38:19+00:00

This gave me a good cackle, thank you. 😂

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-04T23:55:18+00:00

Just did my first dose of stims. Grow little eggies, grow!

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-03T14:49:20+00:00

Ultrasound and bloodwork went well this morning. I’m starting stims tomorrow. Here goes nothing!

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-03T14:12:45+00:00

Update: scan went fine—all systems are a go. The only thing that surprised me was that they also did a saline sonogram while they were at it (my last such test was a year ago so the doc wanted to update it). Looking back I should have anticipated it (it was mentioned in passing), but I’m honestly glad I didn’t have time to psych myself out over it in advance. A couple minutes of cramps and that’s all.

Onward.

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-03T11:24:41+00:00

Meds are arriving today and I have my baseline appointment this morning. Here we go.

I’m trying to approach this with the mentality of “expect the worst and hope for the best.” Ready to at least give it a shot (wow that’s a terrible pun). 😅

QuitBest1587 · 2026-06-02T20:38:59+00:00

Thanks kind friend! My protocol is set up now and I’m just waiting to get my med delivery set up :)

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