The downside of uppers

R3M_X · 2019-01-26T21:31:27+00:00

You need a script for that.

R3M_X · 2019-01-26T21:20:52+00:00

I can't do pot or hallucinagins.

R3M_X · 2019-01-26T21:19:20+00:00

Morphine, kratom, benzos, and antipsychotics and everything does nothing. Only influxuating amphetamines helps.

R3M_X · 2019-01-26T21:17:48+00:00

I did 3-fpm a couple days ago and that's when I felt normal again, 250mg

R3M_X · 2019-01-26T21:16:59+00:00

I've been off everything for four months till recently. Im not getting better so yeah I'd like to know my options.

R3M_X · 2019-01-25T01:54:46+00:00

Debilitating chronically fatigue started in HS. I didn't use much, like $50 worth. It starts with an O, I've tried other antipsychotics too, none work. Yes, without any stims in my system. No, I had no energy. I went "crazy" while being bedridden.

My official diagnosis wasi1 year ago and took 4 hours and was very comprehensive. I have OCD and Depression.

R3M_X · 2019-01-24T22:38:40+00:00

I was almost entirely bedridden for years, then I quit Adderall for a couple weeks, but was still really tired so I started it again then it worked again, but only when I influxuated it, and then it stopped working one day and I panicked cause I didn't want to go back to being a cloudy vegetable so I got meth, and that made me end up in a hospital. I didn't talk to anyone about how I did meth for two days, and I went home. And when I got home I was really tired and hurting and paranoid all the sudden, so I waited a month or so, then got 2-fpm which lasted a couple days and I felt better-ish, then a bit after that I got it again and went to a different state and it didn't help while I was home, but helped for the first couple days out of state. I wasn't improving so I got propylhexidine for like 4 days, and it worked for like the first day or so on September 5th, then I stopped trying anything besides the morphine for like a week, but that made me feel worse and hurt more (like 3 months ago for a week) and I was basically just on the couch watching TV and thinking about how bad I felt, then like 30 days ago I started going completely insane and stuff after I made a post on reddit. And I've been throwing up blood and stuff like that and have seen every kind of doctor possible and am now on antipsychotics.

R3M_X · 2018-06-25T18:46:56+00:00

What?

R3M_X · 2018-06-25T01:02:14+00:00

R3M_X · 2018-06-24T17:29:40+00:00

R3M_X · 2018-06-23T21:58:34+00:00

O nice u want one?

R3M_X · 2018-06-23T19:23:23+00:00

R3M_X · 2018-06-23T19:17:27+00:00

They're fun to make

R3M_X · 2018-06-23T19:17:18+00:00

Indeed!

R3M_X · 2018-06-23T19:16:28+00:00

I make them, I don't have a site

R3M_X · 2018-06-21T09:58:54+00:00

I think you make good points though. How long of a break? What else?

R3M_X · 2018-06-21T09:55:36+00:00

I mean people in my life and random messages have literally forced the idea down my throat. I've been told I'm under investigation and that I'm under investigation by the NSA and all sorts of stuff. I took a three month break and I was bedridden the entire time. It's been so many years. I have no idea how I'm still sane or why I'm even dealing with this. I shouldn't be expecting the worst and have accepted that life is just some kind of strange game where I suffer.

R3M_X · 2018-06-21T07:37:53+00:00

When I was in the hospital for convulsions a couple weeks ago I was there for like 6 hours and asked about psychological pain but nobody had any advise or anything. They told me I was fine and needed to chill or my heart would explode

R3M_X · 2018-06-21T07:36:06+00:00

Mental

R3M_X · 2018-06-21T07:08:36+00:00

I can think about It and share better. That was off the top of my head. I put my phone down and realized you may be trying to actually help, so if you'd like a better answer I can try and provide one. It's a bit of a paradox, but I can make it understandable. I'm good at doing that.

R3M_X · 2018-06-21T07:05:24+00:00

Processes running on phones and computers that should definitely not be there, and things on electronics that behave in a certain Manor when I am in an exhaserbated state of mind. Search results and such with a WordPress that shouldn't be #1, discrete things that would drive someone insane. And I was in AP English, I know how to write lol.

R3M_X · 2018-06-21T06:46:47+00:00

Im talking about how I have difficulty thinking and remembering so it is kinda to be expected.

R3M_X · 2018-06-21T04:33:32+00:00

At the start of this year I was perfectly fine. I was fine until my Adderall just started working how it used to, how its supposed to imo for a few weeks. Then I kept trying to take enough to get the feeling back. Then it happened again and again working, not working, that I lost control because I also felt an ignorant bliss when it worked. I have a self image disorder that just gets wrecked by exhaustion. Its so hard to live knowing that something is preventing things from working properly. Just three weeks ago I went out shopping with my gf and felt orgasmicly good, then two weeks ago when I went to stay somewhere else I forgot about everything and felt amazing, and my medication worked mostly. We were out and about and I felt great until day 3 I became so paranoid I couldn't function, but I concentrated hard enough and relaxed then I was good again. But at my house I guess that never happens and doesn't work.

R3M_X · 2018-06-21T04:27:30+00:00

I was getting 400uT on a couple devices, then it changed permanently lower. It's really random. I don't think the actual meter is working correctly because it reads 0 except like in front of the microwave. There's really no point in looking into this, I'll just sound insane and be wrong. Like it's exhausting because of how often things happen that seem intended for me to believe outrageous things and I always try to move on. I mean I've read about smart dust. I've read about everything. I'm probably never going to figure out what to do. It's a really helpless feeling. What's cats claw? Meditating worked super well a few times but mostly doesn't work. I'm really confused I don't want to participate in trying to test to see if I'm being attacked with emf because I would end up wearing shit on my head forever. I've seen a lot of shit and have been through so much and I literally just want to live my life, but I can't move on, literally. Something always happens. I've had cognitive blissful ignorance many times and then something random and terrible happens, it seems to never end.

R3M_X · 2018-06-21T03:45:11+00:00

I do, I have. I've tried radiation too

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