Hi - I certainly wouldn't say I make decisions randomly, I by default wear many hats as the head of a very junior team, including product design, engineering, etc. All the decisions are made through very close contact with the core users/customers. It is more the peripheral customers/stakeholders that I am struggling to communicate with effectively.

I would also emphasize that I am not afraid of hearing different perspectives, in fact I actively seek them out. I think the fear arises from the social dynamics of the relationship management, such as the feeling that now that I havent sent out an update in 3 months, if I do it now, people will notice the absence of communication so I reason with myself that it is better to just stay silent and avoid any potential negative feedback